CalenMay

Yeah I'm trying my hardest to just get out. Thanks.

The thing I hated most about nursing school is the abuse of power from my professors. And it extends into my clinical work as well. There is a certain cocky-ness about this whole medical field that I will never understand. I know that you need to be educated and that you need to be confident about what you're doing but the lack of people skills between peers still baffles me. For a people profession it just sucks big time...sorry I got on my soap box. Nursing school is going to be hard. And the profession is going to be hard. It's easy to say but to try and let God take the wheel so you can enjoy more of life is my advice. My other advice is to have some little hobby to take a break from studying. My sister posted a saying to my Facebook wall recently, "Don't give up. We all have gone home in tears. We've all second-guessed why we do what we do. We've all felt like failures at times. We all wanted to quit at some point. Just remember. You save lives. You can't expect that to be easy."

I am here basically searching for counseling, advice, mentorship. I am completely burnt out in my nursing career. I am three years in, working in a nursing home. We are short staffed and I am at least working a 16 hour shift weekly. I am the senior RN which means especially on the weekends when management is not present I tend to the needs of the 110-some bed unit (example staffing issues). I specifically care for 30-some residents at a time. The acuity of the patients seems to be getting higher...PICC lines, trachs, PEG tubes etc.. I feel that my license is unsafe. My boss is extremely incompassionate and unwilling to help or change the workload. My respect for her is zero...as just this weekend she has participated in two Facebook discussions/dramas. One included a bitstrip of her holding two thumbs up stating "To those who leave (insert workplace name). Who has two thumbs up and doesn't care?" There have been mass emails to all staff regarding things that I have done. I feel like she could have talked to me privately about these things. One email was regarding the fact that I made a Facebook status about having a 16 hour shift with no break and how that was unprofessional and that we needed the public to want to come to our facility. And ironically, well see above what she posted. She sends out so many emails that it's so hard to keep track of what is going on and what we're supposed to be doing. I keep getting written up and though I may deserve it, I also feel like she's writing me up just so she can keep me here. I don't think I can transfer within the health system if I have these write ups. I have recently got a licensure for another state since I'm near the border. Also, I have been accepted to college for my RN to BSN completion program although at this point I wonder if I even want to be a nurse because I'm certain I have compassion fatigue. I have been applying to other jobs and want to get a hospital job but I am having the hardest time getting offered a job. For a nursing shortage you would think this wouldn't be as hard but I just completed my 8th interview in a years time. I could work on my interviewing skills. I think I look great on paper. I've been employee of the month twice within three years. Basically I need encouragement. Do you know where I could get counseling as a nurse and also maybe get career counseling to further myself? I feel that I would be a great asset to any employer. I work hard, am very enthusiastic, flexible, and eager to learn.