I completed an LPN program my Senior year of High School. I struggled through most of the program even with a lot of studying. I know a lot of that a LOT of that had to do with having no confidence. I didn't have any emotional support I home and still don't today. When I graduated I got a 63 on the ATI. It took me five years to go back and get the 67% that is required because I just didnt have the motivation and confidence in myself. At this point I'm not sure if this is what 'm suppose to do. I've been a CNA for almost 5 years now, and I have mainly stuck with this kind of work. I do have a passion for taking care of the elderly. I took my LPN Boards 2 days ago and failed. I know that I'm smart, but I also know there is a lot of information I need to review. I don't want to be a half-ass nurse but I'm really scared. It's so serious. You really have people's lives in your hands and nurses are judged so critically. The program I went through was good in ways, but also kind of crappy. There's so much I need to review. I'm scared of doing things like putting in an NG Tube, drawing blood, or giving an IM injection. I talked to the coordinator of the program who says two people had failed this year, and now I'm the third. I feel like such an idiot. Maybe I'm barking up the wrong tree. I want to know it all. I'm so afraid of being in emergency situations and looking like a fool. Following instead of leading. The thing is that im almost 24 years old now, which sound like 50 to me, and I just don't know how I could start all over and change careers again. I don't even know what would do. I know I can't survive off what I'm making now. I can't even afford to take the NCLEX over again right now.