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Dear readers, I write here today to share my story with you all, a story that maybe can relate to some that are going through the same situation. If that is the case, please feel free to relate your story with me. I am a BScN graduate and these last 2 years have been quite a long and druelling process. With three failed attempts to the CPRNE and then the NCLEX, it has been by no doubt one of the hardest and painful momente for me. Currently I am still fighting to get at least get one of my examinations annulled. This process has been long, draining and costly and just adds to my frustrations. At times i really feel like God has something else planned for me other than as an RN. Through this whole process everything has been so difficult and long and at times i just really feel exhausted and drained. I feel so ashamed and I barely talk to anyone about my issue bc of the embarassment i feel. My parents in their own regard feel for my frustrations, but at the same time they add so much more annxiety towards the situation. They constantly remind me how much of a failure I am and constinously do a great job at blaming and comparing me to othet successful nurses out there. It just hurts. On a positive note, a friend of mine that is also going through a similar situation gave me advice to take the RPN examination. In September of 2015 i took the exam and was successful. This opportunity gave me a boost of confidence and strength to carry on with the hardwork of getting a degree as an RN and fighting for an opportunity. As stated earlier, I am at the process of fighting my claim for an annulment with one of my examinations. I had a teleconference hearing with the college of nurses of ontario and with the health professions board. The session was informative and they gave me an opportunity to justify my case regarding what "specific circustance" under rules them to annul my claim. I have pleaded and explained that I experience test anxiety throghout my exams which causes is a huge influence on my failed attempts. Even throughout nursing school i experienced anxiety but that never detered me to graduate and get my bachelors degree. During the conference i felt there was no empathy or regard towards my claim. After the session they recommended me to send additional documents if i want to further dispute my claim. They recommened me to check a site that provides many cases within the review board that are similar to my case. As i checked the site, i saw several of the similar cases of mine and noted all their request and substantial circumstance to plea for an annulment. Many of these applicants circustaces warrants the chance and opportunity to given another opportunity. So in this regard I now really question what basis does CNO have to regulate a law that is so far from undetstanding. From the very beggining of nursing school, I was trained to have a mindset and work ethic based on empathy, client-centeredness, therapeutic communication and above all compassion. Why does this differ from finding compassion grounds to allow applicants more opportunities. This year we have trabsitioned into the NCLEX system. A system that is govered by an independent association: NCSBN. A system that wr are now incorporating in canada which before our intial transition has been operating for 30 years. For 30 years, NCSBN has policies governing future nurses several attempts to take the exam and alongside provide refresher courses/remedial programs that do not take up anothet 4 years of an applicants career. In this regard, the law governing nursing in ontario hold such a puntive stance towards future nurses. With much frustration, I cannot keep inside the anger and sadness that I feel. I know there are many other people out there in the past, present and future that are suffering bc of this legislation. If you are I so kindly ask to share your stories with me. I feel so alone and want someone to share this with. We arent perfect, every single one of us makes mistakes. We fall but we get back up. For some people it might take longer than others, but that doesnt me where any less worthy. So for all those who feel despair, there is hope. Even I going through this situation have faith and hope. You can never lose anything when you believe. Thank you for taking the time to read.

Hi, I have been reading through your post and threads and I know you posted your blog back in 2010 but I am going through the same exact situation as you. I feel for you and I hope that things are looking up for you now. I would like to talk to you privately this is my email address [email protected], I just want to tak with someone who has gone through the same pain and frustration as I did. I took the CRNE twice and I was part of the group that was transitioning into the NCLEX type exam. I took it last Jorificeary 2015 and found out In Feb that I didnt pass. I am so incredibly ashamed. Anything that has to do with nursing and healthcare just hurts me so so much. As of right now I am just trying to look for employment to be able to start paying off my loans and bills. My dream was to get my license and hopefully transfer over to the USA since my partner is currently residing in Florida. So again so much frustration and emotions I am feeling. I would really love to talk with you, or if there is anyone in this chat or blog that is willing to talk and listen my e-mail address is there. Thank you

Hi guys, I went through the same thing you guys are going through. I have failed in passing the CRNE and since the CRNE was now changed to NCLEX this year I was also did the exam last January. It has been such a painful and depressing moment for me. I feel so ashamed, angry and frustrated at myself and of the situation. I am feeling quite loss of words and ideas as to what I should do next. I know there isn't a lot of people I can trully relate to about this situation. I would love to talk to one of you guys and get their advice/ help as to what you did.

My ghost story happened during my student years when I had one of my placements in a medsurg floor in an old hospital wing. I was just finishing off my evening shift and was on my way to the ladies change room. Some of my colleagues were already there, so I walked a long corridor to the change room. All of a sudden a notice a young boy run past me like he was being chased and it freaked me out bc he kinda startled me. So I watch as the boy run in towards the corner of the hall into the girls change room. I quickly ran to the room bc I mean there are all my nursing friends getting changed. As I got into the change room, I quickly asked my colleagues where the little boy went. They all just looked at me weirdly like I was crazy. I literally looked through each stall and bathroom but no trace of the boy. Even my friends were all freaked out. I even freaked myself out. I mean what would a little boy be doing in an old med surg floor at 11pm by a long dark hallway?

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I would head down south to florida. I'm a tropical girl. I definitely would just want to also move out from my parents house, kinda just have my own space and freedom.

Hey fellow colleagues, Today I received bad news that I didn't pass my Canadian registered nursing examination. Quite hard to swallow that news. It has been a long year and a half just trying to graduate and finally get my degree. But I know life goes on. The moment I received the letter I went and sent my application for the October 1st exam 2014. Less than 3 months away. During the time I was preparing for the exam, I have utilized many resources that were advised by past graduates who were successful. I have used the mosby's prep guide along with a few lippincott's question reviewer. I also utilized the CRNE exam prep guide. I didn't take the prep courses since I don't have the budget for it. I would really like to get some advise and any feedback from anyone. Any strategies to help me through my studying. If you have any of your personal stories to share feel free. Thank you for taking the time to read my post, C