I accepted my current RN position in January after working a year in home health. I have had some awesome experiences and some horrific experiences. That's the way it is. My last one was horrific; our administration were geographically-challenged and I would regularly put 200+ miles on my car a day (which, as it turns out, was completely uncompensated) and see 8-12 patients. I adored most of my patients, but management was clueless. Before that I was in a clinic where I was harassed and bullied, with lewd comments about male anatomy made in my presence on multiple occasions. I made 8 separate complaints to HR in four months. Nothing was ever done. In fact, through second hand information it turned out that the LPN who was supposed to be training me was intentionally doing so incorrectly to make me look bad. But again, HR did nothing. The sexual harassment was ignored...because, well, that just doesn't happen to guys after all. My current job...well, it's been unreal. The clinic brought me in to work with a new pain management doctor; essentially, we were building the practice from the ground up: the system had never had PM before. I met the doctor, a really great guy just 2 years older than me, and we instantly hit it off. But the job turned into far more than simple nursing...inventory control, policy writing, interviewing and hiring, it turned out the system wanted my input on EVERYTHING. It was stressful, a ton of work, and still is. But damned if I don't freaking LOVE my job! The doctor and I have become really good friends with my wife and his all hanging out regularly. I have a second RN and an MA under me who do great work, with good Chemistry between us all. We have regular "team building" meetings monthly at a local restaurant to continue that Chemistry and invite other departments who are integral to our function (billing, codin, transcription, prior auth, reception, FP, etc) to them as well. Proudest of all, my department has the highest Press-Ganey scores in the system. Seriously, when is the last time you heard that from pain management...especially when your doctor absolutely REFUSES to write anyone opioids? The point I'm trying to make (in a REALLY roundabout way) is this: you felt the calling, so it's in you do be really good at nursing. Don't feel trapped...explore your options. Find something you enjoy. There are a sh!tload of opportunities out there...so many different possibilities. Insurance work. Research. Legal consulting. Pharmaceutical rep...this might be a really good one for you with the biology background; one of my best friends got his degree in Chemistry, but he is a pharm rep now and has been for years, and really enjoys it. It sounds like you need a break from patient care- find something in nursing that minimizes that. Have faith that the right job is out there for you. If you felt the calling, then you're in the right field...you just haven't found that perfect spot yet.