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Thank you for the response. Yes, I'm not sure what the answer is. I guess I was wondering if I should just withdraw. They seem to want me to fail, but it could just be paranoia.

You're human. I'm tired of professionalism in nursing being defined as zero emotion. Your tears is an expression of caring about your job, and being at your wits end. I would rather have a coworker that cared enough to be in tears, than a robot that is there for a paycheck and to go home. I don't believe that it reflects badly upon you that you care, but there are some who will say it does. I would talk to the manager in person, because emails can be interpreted any way, and her last memory of you will likely color the email in her mind. Just explain to her that you are concerned for patients, and that you were sad that you can't provide the kind of care that they deserve. That way she sees you as less of feeling sorry for yourself and more of feeling sorry for the patients.

I knew a nursing assistant that said she couldn't work Sundays because it was against her religion, and the administration granted her request. She later was laughing and joking about lying about being religious to get every Sunday off. Noone thought it was funny. I would be careful granting requests like that, it is a slippery slope and eventually everyone will get frequent breaks for religious reasons. If she needs to have breaks like that, she should find a job that allows it. Being a nurse means knowing you will likely work every other weekend, work mandatory overtime, be without family on every other Holiday, and make many sacrifices. It has nothing to do with respect for religion, when it interferes with her job function, she needs to find a job that fits in with her lifestyle.

I've been a person who is a believer for a while now, and I don't agree with the practice of pushing religion on anyone. It makes me cringe when my own church members go to neighborhoods and knock on doors. I think it's aggressive. The man put you in an awkward position, but from his point of view he probably honestly thought he wanted to help you. Sometimes we say things a little differently to some patients if we know they are emotionally fragile...we will "butter" statements and tell half-truths to save their feelings. As long as you are not lying about the treatment plan, there is nothing wrong with pretending to be Christian just to make him feel better. Even if he thinks you are faking it, he will appreciate that you are trying to appease/impress him.

Hi, This post is a little bit of a vent, but I am looking for advice on whether I should be worried about future backstabbing, etc. I was recently dropped by a preceptor for a Masters program because I had to come in late to clinical. We find our own clinical instructors and they sign a contract with the college. She decided to terminate the agreement and send out a blast email to many people saying the practicum was terminated. My instructors were worried about the reputation of the college, and after initually saying they would help me find a new instructor, decided after seeing the emails, that I needed to have a meeting. In the meeting they said they were just discussing what had happened, and didn't say anything about a "decision" until the end. They then told me that they were sending this to a higher up person to see if I will be able to continue the class. I had asked them many times before the meeting if I would be able to continue the class, and they were silent on the issue, so I had a feeling, but they were never straight with me about it. After a lot of probing, I found out that they had already sent me a letter saying that the class was terminated. I was distraught, and sent out emails asking instructors to help me continue with the class. I also reached out to the higher up, to see if I could just be given a chance to try and complete the course with a new clinical instructor. After a lot of phone calls, emails, and convincing, I was allowed to continue with the class. This is the thing: The program director, whom I believe was behind the pressure to keep me from continuing in the class set a list of rules for me. These are extra things I have to do that other students don't, and she clearly stated over and over that just because I can take the class doesn't mean I will pass. This seemed like an ominous message. This program director also stated over and over that I shouldn't have reached out to anyone, that if I was a Masters prepared nurse, and a real professional, then I would accept the consequences of my actions. She stated many times that reaching out was unprofessional and that it is a sign of poor decision making. She also told me that persons with this type of decision making cannot be good nurses. In my opinion, the lack of professionalism was reflected in them not being honest with me about the meaning of the meeting. The clinical instructor also lacked professionalism for dumping me for being late. I had a feeling it was because she had a vacation coming up, and she had to find someone to take her place for an entire month. Ultimately it was my fault for not being able to be there on time. I've reached out to a new clinical instructor, who was at first excited to work with me, that has not had any further communication with me after the program director asked for her contact information. I believe that they may be trying to sabotage me. I don't know if this is paranoia after feeling victimized for not being able to continue the class initially, and having my class put on hold for weeks pending the "decision." They haven't been honest with me about anything so far, and have been deciding things without me there, all while reassuring me that nothing is happening, while precious time passed that I could have been finding a new preceptor. I don't know what else to do but keep trying to find someone and forwarding the information to them, and try to complete the class. Though I have a feeling that I will not pass this class, no matter how hard I try.