I graduated from a BSN program this past May from a top nursing school with a nearly 4.0 GPA, and began a position on an intermediate surgical floor at a large, prestigious hospital within 3 months of graduating. I had thought that I was doing well but my manager didn't think it was a good fit for me due to the multiple services on the floor and me not being able to handle a 4-5 patient load. I had about 9 preceptors during that period, and was originally hired for a 6 month orientation. At the end of my 90 day probationary period she let me go since she thought it wasn't a good fit, and she said during my exit interview that I should act like I never worked there and start applying for new jobs within the system. She said I should leave that job off of my application/resume because it would look bad to other managers. However, when I went to apply for new positions in the company I realized that that wasn't something that could go unnoticed. I contacted the nurse recruiter and she said that I should reapply for jobs at the hospital and let her know when I applied for them, but that I needed to put that I worked there on my resume. Needless to say at this point I was scared that I wasn't going to find another job, and at that point and time there weren't any new grad positions open, so I would've had to wait about a month to reapply. From that point on I applied at multiple different organizations, but had taken my nurse managers advice to leave that job off of my resume. It turns out that I interviewed and was hired for a position at a small pediatric clinic within a week of being let go from the previous job. At first I thought it was going well, it was an extremely small clinic with only about 5 employees, and I thought that was something I enjoyed. However, there was not much good communication with me. Apparently some of my measurements had been wrong, but no one came and talked about it to me or made me aware of it, until about a month after being there when I had to go to someone and asked about certain things to improve on. After that no one came to me again and told me that my measurements were wrong, so I assumed I was doing better. There was always a lot of gossip about me being slow when I was there, but no one really came and talked to me about it much at all. The physician would often time blame me for things that at times weren't necessarily my fault. When I met with one of the nurses after a month of being there she said there were a few things that needed to be fixed, but didn't communicate to me that they were having major issues with me. Needless to say, I was just let go from the practice after being there for 2 months. I am in a very bad place right now, and am worried that I'm not going to find another job. I'm starting to think I should just give up on nursing since no one is going to hire me after what has happened, even though I've happened to be in 2 bad situations. I've always had a passion to be a neonatal nurse, but now I'm starting to wonder if I'm ever going to be able to find a job as a nurse, and am not really sure what to do. Do yall think I should just find another career at this point or what should I do?