SCnurse89

Nobody knew about my grades I came from a different state. I wasn't bragging just making a statement. But I don't see why people would do that in the first place. Just because someone is smart doesn't mean you have to attack them and bring them down. What is wrong with people

Thanks everyone I'm going to change my outlook and try to take charge of my learning experience.. Definitely need to grow thicker skin but every experience has something to teach us

It was hard for me to put into words what is happening. My director and nurse manager have nothing but positive things to say, my other preceptor was great and helped me progress. This one just wants to put me down. I've never boasted about my grades or success. I've talked to my old preceptor about this and she just tells me to keep my head up and that in 2 weeks I'll be on my own and to just hold out. This is more than just challenging me, it's putting me down and there's a big difference. I was in an emotional state when I wrote the first post but I understand it's hard to put it into words.

A little background on myself, I am a new nurse that had a year experience in a post acute care after graduation. I just got a new job in a hospital finally, acute care just what I needed! I came here so I could continue learning skills on a med surg floor. However it is not going so hot. I was at the top of my class both in the classroom and on the floor in clinical. I am smart and ready to learn and use my knowledge, I had felt as though I was starting to forget skills and critical thinking so I made the change to get a job in acute care. I had been trying for a while but every where wanted a year experience! Anyways, my preceptor is a smart nurse but from day one she has been emphasizing all the negatives every day. I make big strides every day but I feel like she has it out for me ! If I make a mistake or I am having trouble seeing the big picture she puts all the blame on me and saying it's going to take her a lot of work to get me up to par. She says these things constantly that kill my confidence and now I don't even want to work there. She wanted to sign me up for extra days after I just worked my three 12 hour shifts in a row because she felt like I needed more time. She always talks about how quickly she caught on and stuff and that her orientation was half the time mine is. I've been on the floor for maybe 8 weeks now and she is taking away any confidence I might have had. She constantly goes around me to do things like call doctors and and do discharge and give meds without me knowing because I'm not up to her speed. She constantly is asking did you do this or this or this, and when I haven't gotten the change to do it all she freaks out because I can't clone myself to meet all her expectations. I just beg all preceptors to not push the new nurses to do everything at your speed and don't kill their confidence every day by emphasizing all the negatives! I just wish I could have a preceptor that didn't make me feel like a failure every day. Am I the only one who thinks they should just quit? I feel like 4 years of school has been wasted and now I get to go to work every day just to get told you're a failure. Talk about depression.........