scaredandconfused

Hello, I am seeking advise. I was scheduled to start a new travel assignment and stupidly tested positive for recreational marijuana. What an idiot, right!!! I was so scared when they called to inform me that my assignment had been cancelled, and they were required to report me to the BON. I was so scared that I denied it. I have never been in trouble for anything in my whole life and I got so scared and ridden with anxiety that I didn't know what else to do? I was told that they would be informing the BON by mail and I would have to wait to find out what happens to me. I have learned my lesson and will not partake in recreational use ever again! This has been several months now and I have not heard anything from the BON. I am so scared as to what the future holds that I don't know what to do. I have spoke to a couple of trusted more experienced nurses who have told me that it would probably be best to continue to deny it. I did see one post on here that talked about self reporting to the drug rehab program and I was not even aware that this was an option. Does anyone have any advise? I love being a nurse and would do anything to protect my license. I have never and would never go to work under the influence of anything. I do not use prescription medication and would never even consider stealing medications from work! I have worked with nurses who steal IV medications from patients and go into the bathroom and inject them themselves. I find that crazy and I don't feel like I should be lumped into the same category as them. I only used marijuana once in a while to relieve stress on my days off. I'm so scared! I have no idea what to do! I do not know anyone who has ever been in a situation such as mine and I do not want to broadcast it to anyone. Any advise would be greatly appreciated! Please help!!