When patients die, I do not usually get emotional. This was weird for me at first because I am a very emotional person. But I consider it a blessing because there is no need for excessive feeling in these situations. As far as how you handled the situation, you did what you were trained to do. Consider becomine ACLS certified. I just went through the training and new I am better equipped to handle a code situation. Also, depending on your resources, you may want to consider asking if you can tag along with the rapid response team for a day or two. My thinking is that it might help you to feel more comfortable with emergency situations.