I have not actively practiced as an EMT but I have had some volunteer experiences, ranging from compound fractures to wasted teenage girls throwing up on me. The last time I volunteered there was a little fella who had fallen and hit his nose on the ground and had a bloody nose, after I had a look and cleaned it up, I told his mother that he was ok and she thanked me, she looked as if the world had just been lifted off of her shoulders. That is why I want to do this, I don't want the money, or expect anything in return, I just want to know in my head that I helped somebody and I did a good job. There is no greater reward than that, for me anyways.
I want to help people, that much is certain. I probably shouldn't doubt myself so much because any time in my life that I have put in the required effort, the results have been very good. I don't see any reason this can't be the same. I guess the words "university" and "degree" scare me a little bit because growing up I was under the impression only people with brains the size of basketballs went to university. These kinds of thoughts are just self defeating thoughts, I shouldn't pay attention to them because I had the exact same thought's before I did the EMT-b course, they just pushed me harder and I passed with flying colors. I believe there is no such thing as "good enough" when it comes to caring for the sick or injured.
Having asthma, I have been the patient of both paramedics and nurses (and doctors) on many occasions, there is no one else on this earth I am more grateful for. If it were not for them and their complete dedication to their jobs, I would be dead, no doubt about it.
For now I'll keep researching the field, and any other advice anyone can give me would be greatly appreciated!
Thank you :)