You need to to self reflect. You are not taking any personal responsibility. Your attitude is negative. Change your thought process and you will find a job. You can change only you. Stop looking at negatives, it is a waste of time. Never will you find a perfect job, nursing is tough and YOU NEED TO BE TOUGH AND THICK SKINNED or you won't make it as a nurse. Stop making excuses, you made choices. You can not change the past but you can change you. Get Tough and stop whining! Face up and start applying. You may have to work a &$@# job but keep it, work hard and read the book, "Your Erroneous Zones" excellent and you will see how your thinking is flawed.