I was going through a miscarriage when I got offered my dream job in postpartum. It has always been my goal to work in this area...I've worked in medsurg for three years while waiting to switch. And of all times, during my first ever pregnancy and miscarriage...I get this job offer. I was extremely thankful to have gotten the job, but also nervous as to how I would handle being around new mommies and babies all the time. Honestly, I believe that God placed me in this area for a reason. I have so much more appreciation and compassion for these moms and babies after seeing how incredibly precious life is, and how quickly it can be taken away. Each healthy pregnancy and baby is truly a miracle. I find myself getting slightly resentful when I see moms who have never had a loss, and have had numerous successful pregnancies. Not that I would EVER wish a miscarriage on anyone, but it's hard because I wonder- if all these women can have healthy pregnancies, why not me? But then I also see so many women who have had losses and are now in having healthy babies and that gives me so much hope. The hardest part though is seeing moms who are on drugs or didn't even want to get pregnant. That is HARD. You will have days where you break down...but you will also have days where you feel incredibly blessed to be able to take care of these women and basically snuggle babies for a living...how cool! Even though I don't understand God's timing, I do trust that He chose this timing to place me here for a reason. I know that I will be able to relate and help other women through their struggles. And I know I will never take pregnancy or healthy babies for granted. I am SO SORRY for your loss. Miscarriage is honestly the misting devastating thing I have ever been though. I pray that you find comfort and healing. Like other posters have said...the pain doesn't really ever go away, but it will get better with time. I hope you have a healthy pregnancy and baby soon!