ataylorRN

You are so brave! I wish i could quit nursing. I have been an RN for 5 yrs now and I have worked in dialysis and home health. I have anxiety anyway, but it is way worse since becoming a nurse. Within 2 yrs of nursing, I had to be placed on antianxiety meds and a antihypertensive. When I left that particular job, I came off of the b/p med. I stayed on the antianxiety/antidepressant until I planned a pregnancy and had to stop. I am still not able to take d/t breastfeeding. I must say, even when medicated...I dont like nursing. I became a nurse to do the right thing, help people...I feel nursing and the medical field is a joke. The area is only money driven, you are overworked and they try to mess you over any chance they get. Like paying you salary and working you 60 hrs a week or overloading you with patients then barking at you for being behind. Let's not forget that you spend more times trying to "cya" and triple document everything instead of actually caring for patients. I know all jobs have sucky bosses and everywhere you go no matter what you do, there will be issues...good and bad things to deal with...but I am sick of nursing. I am burnt out but I have children and one has a disability. I have to provide the insurance for my daughter's numerous dr appts and outrageously expensive meds. That doesnt even include the other two children's medical expenses. This has also been an issue for me...I am a nurse. I work with nurses and dr's, yet no one cares that I have children or that my child has a disability and I have to take her to appt's. I have to find another area of nursing that is less stressfull!!! I cannot handle any more stress. I have recently begun to have anxiety attacks again and I cannot medicate d/t breastfeeding. I feel stuck and do not know what to do. My husband is very supportive and helps with as much as he can, but he runs a business for his employer and is also recently trying to simultaneously open his own business on the side. We live in a small town and I dont think there are many other options other than nursing homes (dont want to ruin my back), hospitals with 12 hr shifts (wont see my kids on those days). All the dr office and school nurse jobs are taken. You pretty much have to know someone to get into those jobs although I'm not sure they are better. A lot of those dr office nurses are beasts and I hate dealing with them! Anyway...I am struggling and I keep praying for guidance. I dont know what else to do. Good luck. I hope you find your path.