hi, i just read your note, sorry your feeling so low. i have only just started my odp training. three weeks into it and i can understand your concerns..i have come out of a career in banking to do this, am i mad or what!! if you feel like letting it all out, just e-mail me..i cant give my tel number on this. hope you find your answers soon..stay sane!!lets swop some tales sometimes. it helps to chat to someone who understands and cares..all the best and good luck what ever you decide..tracey