colie5265

I also interviewed in August and have yet to hear anything back. Has anyone heard anything yet since the last post was from last week? I think they said that we would hear via email. I have been checking it constantly. The waiting is killing me!!

Thank you all for your comments and support. It has now been two years since I posted this comment, and I am still working in the same ICU. I am very happy that I decided to push through and work as hard as I could to be the best nurse that I can be. It did take almost the full two years to earn the respect from some of the other nurses that were there when I started two years ago. Many of the nurses who were very rough and tough on me are no longer working at the facility. The environment improved for about a year...and now it seems to be declining once again. The negativity is not necessarily directed toward me any more, however I still feel its repercussions. I feel helpless to not be able to prevent or stop the horrid way that a few new employees are being treated. It pains me to know that there are still so many individuals that I work with on a regular basis that can be so horrible. Many of them have only been nurses for less than 5 years, and still have the audacity to treat their colleagues in such a poor manor. I would also like to clear up that I don't have any issues with the amount of education that any nurse has behind them, because for many it is all about their experiences and the knowledge that they have gained throughout their years. I respect every level of healthcare. I always feel that healthcare is all about the patient and if we cannot all get along, support and respect each other than the patient suffers. The patient is the priority. We should all take the time to reflect on this. Re-evaluate ourselves and find if we have forgotten this.

I really feel that it would be possible to hire more new graduates into the ICU if everyone worked together to help develop, educate and shape the newbies rather than discredit them. This would make for a better work environment all together. People could help each other out. Be more friendly and welcoming. Instead, it seems that most are out for themselves and making you look bad makes them look better. Why is it that many seasoned nurses in the ICU seemed to have ulterior motives, and feel the need to be condescending, especially the ones who were once new grads in the ICU themselves?

I recently graduated with my BSN as a second career in October 2011 and luckily snagged what I always imagined to be my dream job in an ICU in November. I believe that working in the ICU will eventually come to meet my expectations, but not until I have proven myself and am out of orientation. So far, orientation has been a long and bumpy road that I have been set to go down mostly on my own. I feel that there is not much support and that not many people are will to help me out. Its almost like they are waiting for me to crash and burn and give up. Why is it that they find pleasure in watching other people suffer, instead of assisting in my development. Cant they remember what it was like being a new grad, or just being new to the ICU? I almost feel like they are playing some evil game as if they are testing me to see how I will react to the added stress. For example, trying to plant a seed that I may not be good enough to work on the same unit, or that I have not earned my place there yet. Maybe they think it is good to see how I reach if they tear me down and point out all of my faults and make me feel stupid. I think they are waiting for a reaction of either seeing me bounce back with more force or seeing if I will just give up all together. Why cant they instead help. You know give some tips and tricks of the trade to help me fly instead of leaving me to drown. I have really pushed through. Put my head down. Learned as much as I could. Try to develop different strategies to improve myself and hopefully improve the experiences and orientation of anyone to come to this facilities ICU in the future. I always believe in helping others out, and improving on things that may have made my training and education better for others so that they will not have to struggle as much as I have. Why don't other people feel this way in the environment? Have any of you experienced this kind of behavior when coming into the ICU? Why is it that people seem to think that it is okay for nurses to "eat their young?"