I got this one! Been an ER RN for 13 yrs, was a paramedic before that. I got the h1n1 from a pt in 2009-and was in ARDS in 12hrs. was endo'd and stayed on a vent for 4mo. When i woke up i couldnt wait to tell people what i experienced! Holy.......@#*!. It was terrible..I had always had a calmness about me, could handle almost anything..worked great under pressure,,,thrived off of it. Now .......I get anxiety just by the smell of a hospital. My career is over..Even though my body is only 70% better, it is awfull to not be able to control yourself. Guys...i was terrified while i was under. I had the worst dreams (nightmares). Please be carefull what is said around the pt while they are under. I know we are all guilty of inappropriate comments around a sedated pt but it does affect us pts.. I felt awefull of the things i might have done to my pt now....God i am humbled....but what do i do for you now?