First of all: DONT GIVE UP!! I know what you are going through... Im kind of in the same boat! I am a single mother of 2 kids (18months and 4 years). I work full time and go to school full time (to are online and only meet for 4 hour labs once a month). All I can say, is it is HARD! Here's what Ive had to do... I let things go, I compartmentalize my time and I ask for help when I need it (hard for me to do). And remember, You can NOT do 5 things at once and expect to do them well or even remotely well. And, you're going to lose LOTS of sleep, but it wont kill you. And, Your family will be better because of the sacrifices that you are making now. So this may be way too much info but maybe you can take some little nuggets here and there and maybe it will help, lol A typical evening for me: I get the kids at 5. We eat by 5:45 (microwaved frozen chicken nuggets and steamed broccoli again?! Oh well, get over it... Im going to be a nurse someday!) We play for half an hour or so and start baths by 6:30. My 18th month old is in bed by 7, period. I spend time with my 4 year old until 8 uninterrupted doing homework watch a video or whatever he wants to do. It's OUR time! Then he's in bed, lights off, door shut, mommy out by 8:15. Period. THEN I know that by 9pm I will be sitting at my desk studying. So, I use the next 45 minutes doing WHAT I CAN around the house. I only do what I can do in 45 minutes... I start with the dinner mess and make sure kitchen is in order first. (But I dont touch it until kids are in bed so its easier and I can do it faster.) Then I usually do a quick sweep through the house and pick up the kids toys. I have "Your crap" baskets for each kid, so I fill them up each night and put them by their bedroom door to be emptied in the morning. Now keep in mind, I do this like a mad woman some nights...:rotfl: My goal is to do as much by 9pm as possible, because at 9... I stop and study. Period. What's done is done and what isn't done can wait until tomorrow. Trust me, It's not going anywhere, lol! Once 9pm rolls around I sit down with my books. I might stop to change the clothes from the washer to the dryer or hang some up, but other than that all I do is study until 11:30 or midnight. I even canceled my cable...Anytime I wouldve sat my but down and wathched TV, I study. Everybody says how do you do it by yourself, but let me in on a secret... I was married for 5 years, and I know the things I mentioned above are easier to do when there is not a spouse in the picture. Because, you're right it's like having another child to tend to. You feel like you have to give them time and energy that you dont have... and you do. But just like you have to give, hopefully your husband can step in and take some of these resposablilities off your sholders? IDK. I wish more than anything I was still married, but It was so hard to be responsable for 2 people's decisons and accountable for 2 people's mistakes and to always rely on someone who only let me down time and time again. My nusing department head put it like this to all of us nursing students in a meeting: I know you all have families, children, spouses, and parents to tend to ... You all have several balls in the air, but we are your most important ball for the next 2 years... If you dont make us number one (nursing department) you will not make it in the program! I try to remember that, and know it will be over before you know it.. You just cant see it when your in it, ya know?? So, as far as the kid thing, it works better for me to devote the time from when we get home in the evening until they are in bed solely to them. No interuptions. Then an hour or so getting things (semi) back in order. Then it's all me and my books! It's HARD, but please dont give up. Cry when you need to cry. Go on 5 hours of sleep a night. Make your family eat something you can have on the table in 20 minutes or less. LET IT GO! Please do what it takes. I know that I dont know you but If you need someone to talk to message me, ok?