This is going to sound cold and unfeeling and I hope you don't take it the wrong way, but, you are too attached and need to distance yourself emotionally. It is really nice that you are such a caring person and that you or so engaged with the situation. However, the industry you are in and the type of nursing care that your have been trained in will eat you alive if you don't learn to not get so attached. What happens in future assignments that are much more difficult? What happens when you must care for a terminally ill patient? Is there a chance you will ever become a hospice caretaker? It is best for you and your patient in the long run if you lighten up and not take yourself quite so seriously. Other nurses are quite capable of filling in. I agree with the previous commenter, you are an angel... but you have been hired to be a nurse. Jan