onthemend

Idealistic new grad in 1992. I worked Med-Surg, ED, you name it. Worked in clinics with a variety of patient/clients. I was inspired to become a nurse as I gave birth to my son. A Labor and Delivery nurse. That was what I passionately wanted to be. And during my BSN I started learning and working Labor and delivery (L/D). Firm believer in teamwork. Firm believer in supporting new nurses. I was one of the best and could get along with any grumpy Doc. Always ran to emergencies. Several years later I, who needed 8-5 hours, worked in 'Quality Improvement' and then 'Risk Management'. I was always 'swimming' upstream. MD peer review was all for show. I saw things that horrified me. 'Processes'. And patients deaths which could have been prevented. I was fired for reporting a death. I did get another job in L/D but I had changed. I cried throughout my orientation (Nurses smell that fear) and I was terrified to run to the emergency. Three years later, I was so traumatized by what I learned and witnessed, I had to leave the profession. Am on disability due to health issues and I am only 43. I miss Labor so much. I want the courage I used to have. I went online, to BRN: Only support is diversion???!!! I have nightmares about newborns dying in ED........

Morning...have so much to say but I have to be HIPPA careful. I have been RN for 21 years. BSN, and some MSN. I worked ED M/S. Last 10 years were labor. Then for the hours of 8-5, I took a job in Quality Improvement and the Risk Mgr. I was so horrified at what I saw. I even went to state and federal agencies after I was 'fired' for reporting an 'incident'. Nobody 'did' anything. I started another job in Labor but was terrified to run to emergencies...because of QA. I joke with friends about being the only nurse who came out of QA with PTSD. Consequently, I went on disability due to the above and health problems: back, carpal tunnel and then some. Anyone out there that can help I sure would appreciate it.

I worked in Labor and delivery for 10 years. Firm believer in teamwork. Unfortunately, I hurt my back many years ago during a delivery. I recovered in a couple days, and back to work I went. Several years later I worked in 'Quality Improvement' and then 'Risk Management'. Three years later, I was so traumatized by what I learned and witnessed, I had to leave the profession. Am on disability due to health issues and I am 43. I miss Labor so much, but am so afraid to run to the emergency, like I used to. HELP. Or warning.MD peer review was all for show--the last two hospitals I worked.