jerbear315

I’m employed currently at a LTC that the scheduler/recruiter promises recruits whatever schedule they want, then takes current nurses schedule and gives it away. Both day shift LPNs has their schedule taken and given to new RN hires. Now I’m working long weekends and barely enough to get benefits. What happened to seniority? It’s happened before to previous RNs too, they left. We ALL have family, husbands, kids or parents, we all want a nice balance. It’s just wrong.

I appreciate any positive thoughts. I know everyone has anxiety, but I have dysautonomia. Most of my panic attacks are all 4:00 a.m. in the dead of sleep but if I stress myself out it can happen. I think everyone is right, the more support and sense of community of doing it with others will help. I just can't bear the thought of spending so much money again and feeling the pressure. I do great on my own under pressure, just when someone is staring waiting for me to screw up! I am currently under review and waiting for them to tell me when to start and what to take, and have talked another ex- co worker into doing it with me. So, if anyone can tell me where all the threads are for excelsior...I'll appreciate it.

I was in a local LVN-ADN program and they had a real attitude with the LVN's. I was 8 weeks from graduation, had not slept for 3 weeks and was told we dare not call in to clinicals this semester. I had a panic attack thinking I was late for giving an insulin and I drew up the wrong bottle of insulin. As I handed the needle for my instructor to look at the dosage, my eye fell on the pink label and it dawned on me-Lantus is purple! Ack! The MAR was such tiny writing and so far across, your eye can easily skip down a line and this happened so often that the hospital instituted the 2 nurse checking policy (why didn't they make the MAR easier to read?) At any rate my instructor who had been my clinical instructor most of the time asked me to have some time off and come back to the program ( I did not sleep since the tension in my marriage was bad and it was toward the end of the program.) Well, they currently were under inspection to get their accreditation again and I was not only expelled in a nasty way but informed that I was dishonest (because how I remember things happening did not match up to instructors.) and told that I could never go to school anywhere ever. My "instructor" sat there and cried throughout the whole thing and said; "You can finish somewhere else!" and the other instructor said; "No she can't." All my RN friends who had pushed me to go to school ALL said; Do not go to that awful school-go to excelsior! So, that was 2004, and I got out of my bad domestic situation, divorced, remarried and am tempted to go to excelsior because they don't care. This makes me think that they'll be happy to suck money out of another person and make it hell to pass too. The problem is that the insist that we have to have excellent hospital skills when I have never worked a hospital in my life, I feel like a duck out of water. I have done home health, and I am confident in my skills. However, I have major performance anxiety and KNOW I will not pass first time around. Do I want to put myself through this all over again? It helps to know they have a boot camp. BUT the point is; Other schools such as the one I went to-they kick people out 2 per semester and these MSN instructors have an attitude with LVN's. One of my LVN friends that went in with me was kicked out for clinically unsafe because her careplan was not good enough. One (not LVN) was kicked out because she asked about how to give meds through a J-peg and (NO, we had not covered it in school-I had wondered why.) I don't know if I am up to spending that much money again and panicking about the CPNE.