bouncing

Previously I posted a thread "bipolar/please help". I had been kicked out of nursing school. I appealed the decision; I got back in. I wrote myself a nursing diagnosis of "knowledge deficit r/t under-identifying with the diagnosis". I also addressed each of 4 points noted in my dismissal from the program. To those of you who responded to my original post I thank you. The Dean, along with the Chair of the department and ADA co-ordinator decided to reverse the decision - for which I am eternally grateful. Your responses to my original post were submitted as part of my appeal. I will definitely stick with allnurses.com; however, I will be changing my username. I have officially outed myself as bouncing, and don't relish the prospect of people with access to my file snooping in on me. That may be a bit paranoid (none the less). Student nurse and patient both thank you. I intend to review my interventions and follow the plan to the best of my ability. That *@##& patient isn't getting me kicked out again.

Thanks to those who responded to bouncing. I haven't started "journaling" yet, but can see the value. I am keeping track of sleep patterns, my recent med change has made me much more organized. The word "psychiatrist" kind of freaks me out. I've gone to psychologist here and there, and years back went to a psychoanalyst for a few months. I did attend a NAMI meeting about a week ago. Some guy mentioned something he shared with his psychologist and I was amazed at the level of vulnerability that he showed. I guess I never really shared the hard stuff when doing talk therapy in the past. I do know that I need to deal with behavioral stuff along with the drugs, but all in all I keep thinking I'm high functioning. The jobs I've lost, not nursing jobs, where always just my temper and mouth. There's a part of me that thinks I'm justifying this with the "bipolar" tag, but there's another part that knows something is wrong--most people have more control over their emotions. Though I've never been physically violent, I can see that my intensity at times makes others react to me in a guarded manner. I guess I'm journaling now, but you don't need to hear all this. I'll definitely take up the practice, and find somebody I can share the hard stuff with. Thanks again to all.

I am still pursuing my education. I am new to site. Did a search on thread and one exist, but all comments are a couple of years old. Somebody out there under "bipolar nurses" thread said they went through a lot with this and were willing to help anyone with issues. I'm planning on writing a "care plan" for myself. I think I am very manageable but want to get a handle on dealing with prodromal symptoms. I picked up the book "Bipolar survival guide" as was suggested in the thread "bipolar Nurses". My disease got me bounced out of one school, and I can deal with that. I am exploring school options and am confident I'll complete my education somewhere. I could use advice and maybe a little encouragement. Hate to be needy, but could somebody out there share if you have issues with bipolar. P.S. Sorry if I'm not suppose to post under this tab, I wasn't sure if posting under student would get me the help I am looking for. Just hope to start a more recent discussion about nurses with bipolar than the previously mentioned thread. I don't know if it's because I'm under the free membership or possibly because the other thread posts are a few years old, but I am having trouble replying or posting on the old thread. Thanks, again just basically--if you are bipolar please share your experiences.