Dltcawa

I have been working in LTC for about a year and half, been an RN for 6 years with clinic experience. I never wanted to work in LTC but had not choice once I was laid off at my previous place. I mostly enjoy the residents, get some anxiety/nervousness with the residents who have confusion and need extra help during the night. The last couple of months I have been so depressed, the nights I dont work I just want to stay in bed,think about how I nave work and how I can't do it. I know I don't feel confident, always worried something is going to happen and I won't know what to do. I wasnt orientated to the facility very well so have been finding out when things arent done right after the fact. I can get my med pass done in time but the constant anxiety over not being able to do this is getting to me. I started an antidepressant but it made me really sick so I had to start another. It got to the point I needed to take a couple of weeks off in order to try to get the meds to work. I am scared to go back but if I don't I fear I wont' be able to find another nursing job.I am not outgoing and the local hospital treated me very poorly because of it-not that I dont get my work done, or get along with patients, but the other nurses caused me trouble.There arent really any other options here but I dont know what to do. I have 4 kids and a husband that are all affected by what is going on with me.

I have been unemployed -due to budget cuts-for over a year after working 5 years in a clinic. Clinics arent hiring RNs, hospitals and home health arent hiring RNs unless they have hospital experience so where do I go? I have expereince in a acute settings from the clinic, am willing to learn what I need to adapt, am easy to get along with and quick leaner yet still no job. I heard long term care was the only option for new grads but for some reason I havent found any jobs there either. Meanwhile, I have a BSN and loans to pay but no job. Also aways seeeing about how there is such a shortage and unemployment dept thinks I am not looking or something> So frustrating.