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I am going to make this as short and sweet as possible...I was an LPN, diverted demerolfrom my job in 2009 (still cant beleive I did this) I gave up my license called the NCBON, went through all their hoops got my restricted license back. I had never used before but had migraines and started taking vicodin in early 2009. After numerous attempts of finding a job after I reagained y restricted license at no luck, I had a migraine and relapsed. I had given up everything to get my license back but my addiction took control. After being broke and working as a waitress I gave up the dream of ever getting my license back. My question is....what do I do now?? All I know is healthcare...I started as a CNA then phlebotomist. I gave up everything to get through school as an LPN. My dream was to be an RN. It has been 1 year since I relapsed and lost my restricted license. Now what do I do? I am 34 years old, no children. Can I legally go back to school and do something like radiography or dental hygiene? I am so lost. All I want is to be succesfull. I do not want a job to have access to any drug. I do not use now. Nor did I while in the program (until I replapsed). I have no money, and have no clue what to do with my life. I am so blessed to have a husband who has forgiven me time after time and still loves me. I want to be successful and look back at this time as a nightmare and my worst low. I feel like such a failure. Any ideas of what I can do?? Thank you.

That is pretty funny........

Thank you everyone for your support and info. It makes me feel better to hear from others. I really do appreciate the time you all took to reply to my thread. Thanks so much and I wish you all the best! I am trying very hard to keep a positive attitude and it gets better each passing day.....considering how upset I was one week ago. Thanks again!

Help!!!! I have been a nurse in recovery for 5 months. I have strictly and carefully followed all rules for the Alternative to Disipline program for the NCBON. I get a call from the MRO from first lab 10 days ago stating my urine was dilute. I told him there was no way that was possible. I do not drink enough water EVER and I didnt consume lots of caffiene that day either. After talking to me the MRO said he couldnt come up with any reason for my urine to be dilute. I am not diabetic, dont take lasix, etc, I was left upset and scratching my head. I called and left a message for my monitoring co. which was out of the office. I spoke with her after the weekend and she said my urine was going to be ruled as "TAMPERED WITH" even though each and every time I am tested it is observed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She said she spoke with the testing site and the collector said she observed me but couldnt see the urine leaving my body. I know the rules. I know I have to lift up my shirt, pull down my pants so the collector can see I have no equipment on me or whatever people do to pass urine tests. I make sure the collector is watching me. I know according to the NCBON I have to make sure of all this and I did that day. If the collector couldnt see the urine leaving my body, she should have told me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I voiced my concerns to the BON and she said "we could go in circles about this all day and she wasnt doing that." I told her I was concerned about my urine getting mixed up with another persons once it got to the testing lab. She said "I have been to the lab where they do the testing and that is highly unlikely" well, I know that human errors occur and she is basically saying they dont. I was upset when I was told my urine was diluted because I know there is no way that was possible, and you could imagine how upset I was that the monitoring cord. said they would consider it tampered with because my urine was so diluted!!!!!!!! So, even though I was supposed to go before the board in two weeks, they moved it 3 months from now. I called first lab to see if I could get it retested. The person I talked to said no, if it had been positive, then I could have had it retested. I asked to have it sent to another lab but she said no, they dont do any of that with diluted specimens. I made an appointment with my doctor to have a u/a because I was convinced something was bad wrong. My u/a was fine, she said my ph was the high end of normal. I am glad there is nothign wrong with me, but there is NO WAY my urine was that dilute. It was straw colored when I was tested at first lab. I only had one cup of coffee that morning and tested in the afternoon and had not drank lots of water-not even close. Has this happened to anyone????!!! Please help!!!!!!!! I do everything I am supposed to do, and get punished! I have really tried to have a positive attitiude through all this but this takes the cake.