I hope things have gotten better since writing this post. I wish I had a lot of great advice for you but the only thing I can think of off the top of my head would be trying AA/NA again. If anything one or two meetings shouldn't hurt. Even if you really feel like it won't help you might at least meet one or more people who could offer some great advice. You can share as much or as little as you want. I'm not even really that familiar with NA/AA but it's likely some of the people may have a lot more resources for you in addition to that support group. Even if what I suggested doesn't help I at least wanted to say I wish you the best. Keep your head up :)