nursingishard

love it. I don't know 'til I know. Nursing is for those who will to be.

love you. always learn about pt's rights. now I've learned about my rights. thx.

oh yeah? thx for judging the PAST ME.

Seriously, I've always been doing more than I have to. I gave a whole cart of water for patient's family members along with ice creams and snacks, etc. I've always done more than what I have to. When my pt hit me, it was my fault. It's not until my nurse came in the room and said to my patient that it was inappropriate for her to hit me that I realize that patient cannot hit me. I think I've been a martyr. When my pt scolded me for no reasons, I just cried. When an old man tried to give me his engagement words, I just became silent and sobbing. And, I went home and I hated myself because I'm just a tech. That's why he dared to say his stupid and ignorant engagement words to me. I've been depreciated. I didn't know that I can say "no" to my customers. I've learned that I can say "no" to not only customers but also their family members. I think I've had enough of self-criticisms. I'm dealing with everything in my life right now: I'm living alone in a place where friends are too busy to be friends, all my friends are in the East, and not in the health care field, nursing school is so demanding. I thank you all for your support. about the my pt. He said he itchy and wet all over his body and he couldn't move his body when I assessed his musculoskeletal system. He begged me for another bath. Yet, he could move when my nurse was there. I didn't know that. My nurse didn't tell me that he could move until I reported to her that I had given him 2 baths. Yes. I was my fault to let this guy control me. I'll be in control again. Yes. I tried to laugh it off by becoming super excited (plus the fact that I've just learned that my new clinical site is at a super nice place) yesterday. Hopefully, it had gone away. But then when I tried to laugh it off so much, it turned out that it was unusual. I plan to judge whether I'm going to do anything for anyone even my patient. Now, I say no to any criticisms. I have to stop criticize myself. I mean I will keep criticizing my behaviors but not myself. And, I need to appreciate myself and what I've done. I've been very good to patients. No patients have ever complained of my service. A few request seeing me when they're back. Some even thank me profusively. I think I'm good enough. This is just one black spot in so many tons of good things that I've done. Thank you :)

Yesterday, I had a patient who looked so much like my ex-big-crush. And, I was blushing all over my face when I was giving him a bath. I feel horrible. It was non-professional. I just wanted to have a hole and bury myself in there!!!! What's worse? He made me give him a bath twice during my 12-hour shift. I didn't know I could have told him that I don't give a bath twice. I think he sensed that I was ... so, he took advantage of that. I was too noob a tech!!! Worse, other nurses sensed that. Even tho they don't say a thing, I know they knew that. I feel horrible. Plus, I was hyper-excited today coming to work because I learned that my clinical site for my coming rotation in school is going to be an awesome place. The nurses look at me very strangely. I'm afraid they may think that I was becoming hyper-excited because of the incident. I just wanted to die!!!!

I had bad grades (Bs & Cs) and my skills suck. But I'm improving myself on it. I'm earning better grades and bettering my skills. Practice and Practice. Prioritize what's more important to you, skills or grades. Or both?

Go and talk to him. Whatever the results are, you'll know how to deal with such things in the future. Try some new but safe things every now and then. You'll be surprised.

After the psychological developmental regression period of the first year of nursing school, I feel like I'm gaining back my position as a young adult every day. I learn to speak up. I learn to accept hatred. I learn to accept how people would appear very nice in front of others but bad mouth others in the back. I learn how people would wrongly diagnose me. They just don't know that I've had so much stress in my transition from the cradle of childhood from a community college to the cold real world of nursing school from a far away place where I used to have so much fun. I learn to accept that I can do so much but I can't do everything. I have to reserve time for sleeping and meditation also. I learn to accept that people will hate me. I learn to accept that people can like me but they can't never be with me for my whole life. I learn to love my family. I learn to value what I have right now: I've gained 10 lbs since starting nursing school but I'm pretty short but I still see myself as the most complete entity I can ever have. And, if I have to leave this body one day, I will miss it a lot. I love my body. And, I learn to realize that people judge me from my past and their hugely wrong prejudice but they can't never have me. They can't. I own my body. I've learned to realize that people don't really do what they say they will. I've learned to accept that there are people who just dislike me but it's OK 'cuz they don't live my life. I'm alone with my own life. I've learned to resist fantasizing. I've learned to accept me with my physical inability of lifting huge patients. I just can't. I've learned to like myself and appreciate things I've done no matter how small it seems like. I appreciate my body.

Also, thinking of all the immunizations and Ped assessment and OB/GYN assessment that I have to go through. Gee. Crazy. Ok, I stop! You make me smile :)

You warm my heart! God bless!!!

yea, you can do a case study on me. and, publish it in a nursing journal The article says that when you are running out of eggs, all you want is do it and have the baby. I hope it helps. Remember to credit me when you publish your paper

you are right. I need to focus on school now. Once I can find a job. I'll work 3 days a week. The rest of the week I'll fertilize a baby. Thx so much, everybody. I don't even have a bf now. Strange. It all started with the strong desire to have a bf nwo. Then, now after a light hug from a male friend, all I want is to have a baby. I hate Ped. Ped makes me want to have babies!!!! I'll finish school with good grades and good performance. I'll let you guys know. Thx so much.

For Women, Biological Clock is an Aphrodisiac | Smart Journalism. Real Solutions. Miller-McCune. I'm just wondering if I'm running out of my eggs. I had my first menarche at the age of 9. I'm now like in my early 20s. From this article, it says that probably because I'm running out of my eggs. I think I'm running to menopause. My period is pretty irregular by now (I'm not using any drugs or med except Multivitamin Bears). I have only 3 or 4 periods last year (normally, it's 10-12). It's 3-4 months by now. May be because I'm hypothyroidism. I need to see my PCP for this. Gee. I don't like giving birth. But I'm afraid I'll be too old some day later and I'll regret. Gee. I don't wanna regret!!!

I've grown up. when I had my OB-GYN, I liked it but I was scared to death. Now, I'm in Peds. I love it so much. Can't help the thought. hahahhahha =) I dread the idea of bearing the child and giving birth. But I love love love nursing babies =) That's why I go to nursing school, I guess, ahhahahahahha

Wow, thx a lot, everybody!!! that explains so much!!!! This makes me love nursing a little more!!!