Hello, Im 23 and a senior nursing student. It's been a very.....VERY long ride. I have never had this many emotions, stresses, frustrations, insecurities, second-guessing of myself, angry feelings, hopeless feelings, physical hardships, feelings of stupiditity. The list goes on...lets just say that nursing school is getting the best of me. It has been physically and, more so, emotionally draining for me. I graduate in June, have 2 weeks left in this term, with two terms to go. I just hope, pray and wish i will walk across the stage...although at times I dont see that for myself. ANYWAY, my instructors, especially my clinical instructor this term has been extremely hard on me and has a bad attitude and negative way of addressing me while in clinical. this is very discouraging and shes been complaining about my skill level, says im behind where i should be and basiically says she feels that i dont have a clue what im doing. so this put me on probation for the first time. BTW, being probaiton doesnt "help" me it makes me even MORE stressed out. After the last down poor of negative things she told my advisor about me I decided I was done. it was last thurday. I had it set in my mind I was done and turining in my hospital badges on Monday morn before class. I did not study for the monday test or prepare for the next week. I was done. However, sunday night I found myself not being able to sleep...my cousin had given me her piece of mind the night before and was doing everything inside of her to convince me to not quit..i disagreed. My step-dad had been gone on a hunting trip and he has been my main support and encouragement, he believes in me and wants this so badly for me, he even has payed my car payemnt for the last year and a half because he believes in me. all i could think about all night was explaining my quitting to my dad. So i ended up attending class this week and decided not to quit. (I did better on my skills this week per my clinincal instructor...) Recently we were given 2 patients to care for and when im in clinical I feel an overwhelming feeling of stress and disorganization. theres just too much to do in so little time. I feel like I cant do it, i feel like having a person's life on the line is not something i want to be responsible. it freaks me out quite frankly. I do love ppl and love helping them but i feel like hospital work is too choatic for me and would like to work in a more low key environment. I went into nursing knowing that there is an abundance of opportunities out there with a nursing degree and many different aspects of nursing to choose from. It seems as though I have to become an expert in the hospital first, this is where ill most likely be put for my practimun starting in April. I just dont know if i can do it..... i dont know. i guess im just wondering if other students or graduates have felt hopeless and have found ways to pull through it. I would love to hear your stories and your tips on getting through it.