clayraRN

Thanku puppyluv for the support. I will be going in tonight. HOPEFUL! I am trying to keep a positive attitude but as u can see it gets the best of me sometimes. I am glad to see someone who came from where I am to where they want to be!

I am a new grad and after a yr of searching for a job...I finally got one....at a retirement home...which is not where I had wanted to be...I always wanted to work in OB....So ending up herre is a big disappointment to say the least....The stress that has come over me since I began working at the nsg home is unimaginable and with my case of OCD it makes me 10x as slow as the other nurses....I look back at those 3 yrs olf school and wish to God I could go back...and just fail and have to do something else....bc I can honestly say.....nsg is not what I expected or what I want......unfortunately with those 3 yrs of student loans to pay off I feel trapped beyond help...I just don't know what to do...but I dread going to work every single day...my days off are not my days off anymore...they are the count down to when I go back in.... I do feel better that other new grads feel the same!