RNIryna

hi, i assume you are an md? very appropriate nick name "tired"..i am an rn and currently in the fnp track at thomas jefferson university and have to admit that i absolutely hate it. my ex - husband is a forth year pathology resident, during the three years that we were together i was able to see a dramatic difference between his education and mine. ironically i am four courses from being done, and believe it or not i do not want to do it. to many people have no idea what or who an np is, what is their field of expertise, and so on and so forth...the school is not as great as it probably sounds as well (besides the name), i am sick of all the politics. for the amount of work that i put into this all i get is that i am a nurse with advanced education.. i am mad that i listened to my mother at one point, since she is an np and followed her footsteps, since from the get go i wanted to go to medical school and she told be that for a woman it is a bad path, very stressful. i agree that it is not easy, i had a chance to live with an md and that is one crazy life, but at least i would be doing what i really want to. right now my position is well defined and i really am not looking forward to be done and not be able to feel like a practitioner, but rather something that is neither a piece of meet nor a fish. when i was a little girl my dream was to become a doctor and have my own practice one day. i cannot do this as an np, i have to be working "with" or "under" another md however you want to call it. i guess all those are just thoughts out loud...i wasted so much time and i regret my decision to become an np...maybe because it was never my decision, i was just following somebody else's dreams not mine...sorry, didn't mean to bore you with my story. maybe you have some sort of advice for me? is there a way to change something at this point and apply to medical school and how long it would take me to become a doctor approximately? what about you, if you don't mind me asking, where do you practice and how you like the lifestyle? iryna