ms.rcnyc

You are definitely not alone in a miserable orientation experience. I am having one myself in med-surg. I am sorry it is going so badly for us but it is good to know I am not alone in how I feel. I too was very excited to begin work, thought I had found my niche in life, and received nothing but positive comments in clinical rotations. Now I feel completely incompetent and abused daily and wonder what I have gotten myself into. My nurse has been in the profession for 33 years and precepted many orientees. Everyone says how good she is at precepting (including my manger and nursing education) but I just dont see it right now. Professionalism is lacking, native languages are spoken amongst staff and critiques are done in patient's rooms! Everytime I have said something it has been completely misinterpreted so now I just grin and bear it and focus on the skills she is teaching. I have been told things like "you need to be faster" as if a new grad who has only been doing this for 3 weeks doesnt know that already. Easy for a 30+ year pro to say. When I asked for tips on time management and organization I am told "it comes with time" and "you need to relax...you worry to much." I am given no constructive criticism yet I am told to "be more confident." I now attribute my frustrations to a cultural diference and a poor unit atmosphere so there is not anyone else o turn to. I have never had anyone so up my backside ever and it is hard not to be anxious in a situation when you are not given room to breathe and figure things on your own and thus build confidence. I could go on and on. Thanks for letting me vent. We'll get through this and one day I think/hope I will appreciate the experience. I plan on paying my dues here for 6months to a year and then move to a more positive unit. We all deserve to feel fulfilled! Best wishes to you!