abundance56

I just reported my hospital, using "anonymous". I made sure to only include things that a parent (I work on kids unit) would know. I am known for being a "loud mouth" and talking to people inside the hospital, to try to change things. I am hoping this will protect me. But it was too much: I work for a private hospital, and it is always about the bottom line (money) and not about the nursing safety. I guess what this tells me, is that I need to start looking for another job, whether or not: they figure out it is me. I have enjoyed the job, but it has finally just gotten to be too much. And too many staffing abuses, and issues that impact patient outcome and safety. I am so pro-patient that it hurts! I wish I didn't care so much!

I have been a psych nurse for some time, but was in a paperwork job for 3 years, and out with babies for 5 years before that. I recently was hired by a psych hospital. Last week was my first week, after orientation. The floor I was put on had 35 patients, two RN's and 3 tech's. We had many very acute, some suicidal, and several elopement risks. On an average evening shift: we got on different days: 3 admissions to 7 admissions. Dr's were rounding past 5pm, and there were new orders on at least 10-12 charts (unflagged). All that to say: There was a narcotics count error. Two RN's using the cart, but other RN has been at hospital a good while. TWO narcotics missing. Absolutely insane! And there was not accounting for it! I do know, at HS on that floor, we hand out Ativan, Ambien, and Klonipin like it is candy to 90percent of the patients (per orders). I think somehow there was a med error, (wrong drug given to a patient) but we could not find it. We both stayed 2 hours with the shift supervisor, looking for the errors. None could be found. I wrote up an incident report, we notified all the people who needed to know. In hind site: I should have asked for a urine drug screen, we do them routinely there on patients....but I was too tired (1am) and too scared to think of that. In giving meds, because they have an old fashioned system of giving and charting meds, and signing them out. (no pixus)....I find myself very nervous, and checking, and double checking and triple checking. So I really do not see how I could make that error, except for true nervousness. I called the shift supervisor today, and said I wanted to address it straight on, and what was the protocol for what would happen next. She said there is no protocol (yet) new hospital, but that the DON is looking at it. I said I had some suggestions on ways to improve their narcotic holding and signing out (even without a Pixus). She laughed and said that no, they were going for the big guns like a camera in the med room. I said Great! But I now am sitting at home, worried to death....I don't work until 2 days from now, and have been sick about it now for 2 days. What to do.? Anyone been there? I have NEVER had this happen before, and No, I did not take the two missing narcotics. I did notice that they are very lax about propping the med room door open, and leaving the keys in the top drawer. So what to do? I really do not know!!!! Please advise! I am paralyzed with fear about what might happen to me. (once they decide). Or put a blemish on my license.