GotoGirlRN

About 7 years ago when I moved into my new house it was in a development where they were building multiple homes. I worked 12 hour shift midnights and so I would come home and sleep during the day. What worked for me was using those soft earplugs, mine were purple and like foam.. And then running a white noise app. on my cell phone that would play like "gentle breeze", "running water", "fan", or whatever you find soothing!! It worked for me! Good luck!

Wow I honestly feel inspired, encouraged and so loved after reading your comment. I mean, I appreciate all the advice but something about your comment really hit me!! Thanks!

Still unable to find employment as an RN. If I would have found a job as soon as this happened my probation would have been worked off my license..... I am becoming less and less hopeful so I decided to read my old posting to get the encouragement to get myself back there on the job market!

Oh and I am sorry I forgot to say that I am in Ohio!

My probation is for 2 years, my attorney says I can probably get it lifted after one year but the hard part is finding an RN job so that I can work my probation off. My probation is considered on my nursing license as "Active with restrictions". The restriction is that I cannot work in home healthcare. All my future empoyer would have to do is submit a paper every 4 months assessing my job performance. I do not have any narcotic restrictions or anything like that..... Thank you so much for the support, you give me hope!

I am not really quite sure why I am writing this. I've wrote on here before right after this happened almost 4 years ago. Here I go... I went to a 4 year nursing school right out of high-school. Graduated with honors in 4 years and started working immediately. 2 years after being at my first job I switched jobs to a hospital that was closer to my home (because I was working 12 hour midnight shifts and had an hour drive home). Everything was great, always had positive evaluations, got along great with my coworkers and supervisors and never got into any kind of trouble. Everything changed when I became extremely depressed and stressed out due to physical abuse I endured as a child and the current stressors that had popped up at the time (husband with chronic, debilitating illness,,,miscarriage, etc).. I started seeing a psychiatrist and he prescribed me an antidepressant and anti-anxiety medication and I also started seeing a therapist once a week. I thought I was doing the right thing...... Well one night at work, 5 hours into my shift, my supervisor came and took me out of a patient's room and had a security guard with her. They searched all my possessions and took me down to ER to drug test me. They didn't find anything on me and my drug test came back NEGATIVE. They claimed that coworkers reported to them that I was acting "strangely" and that I had behaved inappropriately in front of a patient. (NO patient complaints ever came up through all of this). Well I was put on a week suspension and had a scheduled date to come back to work. In the meantime, they reported this to the Board of Nursing.... When the Board of Nursing called me, I was young, naive and thought I had done nothing wrong so I told them about going the the psychiatrist and seeing a therapist.. Well the BON ordered me to see one of their psychiatrists who diagnosed me with depression (DUH?) and Immature personality. The Board ordered psychiatrist recommeded that I be placed on 2 year probation and have a restriction of not being able to work home health care?? I then HIRED an Attorney but unfortunately it was too late! The attorney told me that she could have gotten me out of all of this if I had NEVER agreed to talk to the B.O.N and lawyered up immediately..... I did something really stupid... I took too many of my anti-anxiety meds because I felt like my world was crashing down around me, how was I going to support my husband when he was ill? How would I pay our mortgage? How would I pay my student loans? I was desperate and I should have never done it. I spent three days in a psych unit because they considered it a suicide attempt. The B.O.N and employer found out about this and so of course I was immediately fired for being "mentally unstable" and the fact that "I would cause too much rumor and drama if I came back to work"... So here I am, almost 4 years later, haven't been able to find an RN job, had a car repossessed, filed bankruptcy and now we are facing foreclosure on our house....... I am working an Aide job for 1/3 of my previous salary and it's just not enough, I work 60 hours a week, no benefits. I don't know why I am posting this, I guess I need some advice, I know I have read people on here who have found work while being on probation and I even worked with nurses at the hospital who had diverted drug (I know totally different than what I did but just sayin'.) I just want someone to give me hope because I really feel like giving up on my job search. I had so much pride, overcoming the obstacles of my youth and being the first person in my family to graduate college and now I feel like the lowest of the low and that my life has no value. I guess I put all my identity and self-worth into being a Registered Nurse. Sometimes I deal with this okay and keep putting applications in and feel hopeful, but today I am feeling really down, could use some advice or someone to talk to, God knows I can't talk to my family (other than my husband).... My own mother told me yesterday how "dissapointed she is in my and that I am the equivalent of a High school drop-out"... Sorry for writing a book here but I really need some input or someone to talk to through e-mail or PM to help give me my "fight" back..... Thanks so much.

Ok, I have posted here before. Long story short, I was very depressed (had miscarriage, husband diagnosed with M.S.) about 3 years ago while I was working on a Med/Surg unit. I worked midnight shifts and was also driving my husband to the hospital everyday for Solumedrol infusions for his M.S. relapse so needless to say I wasn't getting much sleep. I was also just started on an antidepressant and a sleeping pill. Well one night I went into work and anonymously I was reported to my supervisor for "behaving strangely" and "smacking a patient on the butt well putting lotion on him"... I didn't have any complaints from any patients, and had never been written up for anything. I was a good employee. I was actually working as charge nurse that night and thought I was doing a good job, just a bit tired. Anyways I was drug and alcohol tested after I was pulled off the floor, everything came back negative. I was fired from my job with no reason. I was reported to the Ohio Board of Nursing and honestly didn't think I did anything wrong so I talked to the investigator from the Board of Nursing and THEN hired an attorney -------BIG MISTAKE. Long story short, I was placed on Probation for 2 years, only restriction is that I cannot be a Nurse Manager. My future employer has to give quarterly reviews of my progress. Well every interview I have went on the manager has fell in love with me and my experience (Home care, Med/Surg, IV team, Pediatrics) and said they wanted to hire me but had to talk to their attorneys.... Well then I get a call saying that I am too much of a liability and they can't hire me! My question is, am I ever going to work as a nurse again? Any advice? Which places should I try that might give me a chance? If you do the hiring at your facility would you give me a chance? I am now well adjusted to my medicine, sleeping well, exercising, been in therapy for 3 years and a completely different and better person,,,, except for not being able to find a job, we are losing our home. I feel like this is all my fault... Any advice would be much appreciated! Thanks in advance! :confused::confused::confused::confused::confused:

Hi, I've posted on here before about my situation. I was at work and reported by another nurse as acting "goofy" and they said I open handedly smacked a patients buttocks while putting aloe vesta ointment on it. I was drug tested, alcohol tested and psychologically evaluated. Everything came back negative. Then in distress, I took too many of my anti-anxiety medications and was admitted to the hospital and my employer found and and fired me and reported me to the B.O.N. Now my life is ruined. I am on the verge of foreclosure, my husband is sick of me not contributing income to the family and I feel like a piece of crap. Since graduating from college I have always been an overacheiver and have received nothing but positive reviews from my past employers (except this one where I was fired). This is hard for me. I have been on a few interviews and they will not hire me because I am on probation WITHOUT restrictions for 2 years! How am I supposed to work this 2 year probation off when no one will give me a chance? It has been over a year. I am sick, I feel like giving up, digging a hole and burying myself in it and losing everything I love. Nursing was my identity, without it, I feel like a failure. How long did it take you to find a job while on probation? Should I just give up? How can I convince someone to hire me when I feel soooo LOW about this situation??? I just need advice because I don't have much "fight" left in me.

Hi! I am in a situation where I have been unemployed for over 1 year! It is so frustrating. I feel like I wasted my time getting my BSN and student loans! I am not going to lose hope though, I'm still plugging along. A little over a year ago, I had a miscarriage and my husband was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. I "broke" under the pressure and had to get on anti-depressant medication. Well I took my medication as ordered and went to work as usual. Basically I was taken off of the floor during my shift and was told I was "acting strangely". I was drug tested=negative, alcohol tested= negative. I was still placed on "Probation with restrictions" for 2 years (yes I got an attorney). I was fired from my job and it has been over a year and I have not found another job yet. I have interviewed with managers who acted very understanding about my situation and basically told me I had the job, just to be called back and told they couldn't hire me due to my probation. I am frustrated, and I guess my point is, if you find any advice, let me know. Just know there are people in similiar positions as you but you have to keep moving forward! Good luck!

Just got a call, didn't get it!

So, to make a long story short, last March my nursing license went on "Probation" because a coworker reported to the Board of Nursing that I was acting "strangely" at work. Drug test, urine test negative, but I was still fired. A few days after I was fired, I "overdosed" on Klonopin at home and my husband took me to the hospital (I wasn't trying to Overdose, I was trying to stop a panic attack)... Anyways, I was placed in the psych unit for 2 days observation then released. Well the Board of Nursing found out about the psych unit stay, so not only is my "strange behavior" on my consent agreement, it also goes into detail about my "overdose"..Because of this, I have been highly embarassed to go on job interviews, just thinking and telling myself the worst! Asking myself "Who would want to hire a nurse who acts strange at work and then tries to overdose on Klonopin!" But that is NOT who I am. I had to pull myself up and realize I am a great nurse , who went through a really hard time, and I deserve a good job... So I started applying and I got an interview this week at a nursing home, I went today for my interview and told them the truth about the probation and consent agreement! They seemed to really like me, and even said they wanted to hire me, they just had to run the fact that my license is on probation with there "corporate attorney"... They told me they really wanted to hire me and as long as he approved of it, I would be hired. What do you all think? Is this good news or bad news? ANyone have any stories about being hired while they were under probation? Where are good places to look for jobs? How do I keep my self esteem up during this time, I have finally got the nerve to start applying again!! Any advice is very much appreciated!

To make a long story short, 2 years ago the Board started investigating me after some coworkers said I was acting "goofy" at work. I had excellent patient reviews, etc.. I had recently started on 2 antidepressants and worked 12 hour midnight shifts so I do think the medications were causing me to be a bit "foggy" at times but I always got my job done and done correctly....That job decided to fire me, I had a panic attack at home and took too many klonopin to try to calm down, my husband took me to the hospital so now I am labelled as "overdosing on the klonopin and suicide attempt" Skip ahead to this past March, my nursing license was placed on "Probation with restrictions".. The only "restrictions" I have are 1)to not work for a staffing agency 2) to not be a nursing supervisor... I have NO narcotic restrictions or other practice restrictions.. I have no criminal history whatsoever..... I'm an R.N. and I am unemployed. No one seems to want to hire me but yet I have worked with people in similiar situations in the past so I know nurses on probation do get hired places, but where? My husband works full time but still we are on the verge of bankruptcy right now. I have to find a job. My husband has MS so while his work is regular, if he has a relapse, well then he is off of work too. Does anyone have any advice such as where they were hired after being put on probation, or certain types of facilities that tend to hire nurses on probation?? I appreciate any advice, I feel beaten down, confused, scared and pretty low right about now so any advice would make my day! Thanks.

Thank you so much. It is nice to hear that people care and I will take some of your advice into account. Maybe I am stronger than I give myself credit for. Maybe I just need to get out there and interview, I mean , hey, if I blow an interview, I am in the same position that I am in now..... JOBLESS :)

:cry:To make a long story short, my nursing license went on "probation" in March re: psychiatric problems (I was going through anxiety and depression and ended up staying 2 days on a psychiatric unit) my job at the time found out about this and then said I had been acting strange at work and one nurse reported that I smacked a "patients bottom open handed while putting on Aloe Vesta" (which I didn't). Anyways I was fired from that job (resigned or be fired) Mind you, no patient complaints, this was a report from a fellow nurse who remains anonymous. I moved on and worked at a job I loved for almost a year when I was contacted by the board of nursing and went through all the "Consent Agreement" procedure (yes I had an attorney) and now I am on probation. I do not really have any restrictions (no med restrictions, I just can't be a Nursing Supervisor). My monitoring agent is very cooperative about approving me to work any job. I was fired from my current job back in April after my consent agreement went into affect, although I was 100% approved by the BON to work there, I was still fired. I am now on my 3rd appeal for unemployment (there saying my nursing license isn't valid so they had a right to fire me). Well I finally got the nerve to apply to other jobs, I have got calls for a few interviews, problem is, I am soooo embarassed and ashamed and do not know how to bring this up when I go on interviews. This has affected my life so greatly. I am on the verge of bankruptcy, My husband has MS and recently had a relapse and so I feel like I cannot talk to him about this for fear I will stress him out and cause another relapse. I actually rescheduled an interview I had because I become physically ill thinking about how I would explain this to the person interviewing me (my license being on probabtion). Basically, how did you get the nerve to go on interviews, I know I need to "man up" or (woman up) and do it, but I am scared I will start crying and don't know how to get my nerve up to go on interviews, I am so scared of rejection and embarassment this is really paralyzing me. I thought about getting a job in another field, I feel so scared to try and get a nursing job. ANy advice is appreciated! Thanks.

Well guys, I got called in today and was terminated-- d/t this incident at my previous employer that happened over a year ago. I was fired d/t it is against their policy to have nurses who are under consent agreements. (Although I was approved by the board to continue working their with no restrictions). So yeah, now what am I supposed to do, apply for jobs, say Hi, I was just fired d/t having a mental breakdown (or whatever you want to call it, it did not affect my job) and was reported to the board of nursing and now I am on probation by the Board for 2 years, you want to hire me? Right.. I feel like why would they hire damaged goods. Just thought I'd give everyone an update BTW, does anyone know if their are any blogs or websites for nurses with depression or mental illness, I find a lot about addiction and recovery ( which I guess I am in recovery from depression and ptsd) but didn't know if their were specific ones.

I know, that is what I am trying to figure out. LIke I have said a million times, my drug screen and urine came back fine, I didn't have any patient complaints, they just went off of what a coworker reported about me that I was acting strangely and appearing tired I guess. I am compliant with seeing my psychiatrist and my therapy. I was diagnosed with depression (which now is is substantial remission according do my dr's report and PTSD d/t years of physical and sexual abuse in my childhood. I have thought about obtaining my Master's degree in psych. nursing because I have been on both sides of it (working as a RN with psych patients and being a "patient" myself). I am just human like anyone else and take my profession seriously. My attorney told me that if I would have contacted her as soon as the BON called me that this probably would have never happened. I guess I just didn't know at the time how quickly this can all snowball out of control. I cooperated with the BON and I thought that is all I would have to do because I didn't feel like I did anything wrong and that they would see that. I don't know it is all very frustrating. It is becoming more difficult to "keep my head up". I still haven't heard from my current employer although I do not have any restrictions to work there. I don't know what to do. But I truly appreciate everyones advice and honestly sometimes reading the comments is what gets me through the day and puts new ideas in my head on what I could be doing instead of laying around and feeling sorry for myself (which I do not like to do I am just very "worn out " not knowing what is going to happen to me. Thanks to everyone, again! :heartbeat

Thank you from the bottom of my heart! I think what I do is put all my self worth into my career as an RN, so the past few weeks not working, I feel worthless. Volunteering or even working for an organization like that is an awesome idea. My husband gets upset when he comes home and I am in a crappy mood just laying around but I feel like the time off has kind of sucked my energy out of me. I think I need to find self worth in something other than my job because people face things like this everyday and I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and "do something" about it! I can't tell you all how much your support has helped me get through. To hear from other nurses and people in the medical profession that do not even know me and want to help and even just their kind words really help me pull through! Thanks again. :heartbeat

Totally understand where you are coming from!!! I worked 12 hour night shift once, and would have a assignment of 10-12 patients on my own, with maybe 1 tech for the whole floor, sometimes none! See I prioritize, hmmm, turning a patient with impaired skin integrity.... or fetching coffee for the family members every time the light comes on. Getting my patients ready for surgery (bowel preps, inserting large bore Iv's, etc) or heating up a can of soup for a visitor!!!!!!!!! Sometimes I want to say "HELLO- theres a vending machine on the first floor, feel free to use it!! Then, the moment you get to sit down and chart, you feel eyes, glaring at you, look up and it is that family member asking for a blanket, slippers, (something for themselves) and if you don't jump up to get it, what a horrible nurse you are! I have had visitors stalk me down the hallways and then you hear them say "I don't know what is going on, there are 3 nurses sitting at that desk!! What they don't realize is we could be charting, waiting for a Dr. to call us back, looking up action value labwork, but we are just "sitting at the desk" IF THEY ONLY KNEW!!!!!!!!!!!!! :angryfire ***Our managers didn't do anything about it, we were to provide customer service to the family members, because our patients weren't patients they were our "customers" FREAKIN glorified waitress is what I felt like!

I'm still alive, still haven't heard anything from my job. The restrictions were lifted so that I could continue at my job 2 weeks ago but still haven't heard from them. I haven't been online much to update because I have been feeling really crappy like I just want to curl up in my bed and hide from the world. It has been very hard for me in past week or two. Just not knowing. Thanks to those who are thinking of me and offering advice

Yes not wanting to "bite the dust" but I have a husband with MS, a house to keep up and an incredible sense of pride in being the best that I can be. I am ashamed and embarassed and who the hell is going to hire me for supposedly being "Mentally impaired"(after being sexually and physically violated for 12 years)-- when 3 doctors reported I have PTSD and depression in substantial remission, have never missed an appt, have never had a patient complaint, have never had a med error.... But who the hell will hire me with this on my LICENSE! Put myself through college and graduated 3.5 gpa.... Student Loans here I come, guess I will go back to school. I will not work in a profession where I cannot be a human being also. I will not work in a profession that reiterates compassion and communication when fellow coworkers will stab you in the back as soon as you turn around. Perhaps I am naive, perhaps I haven't learned the great art of kissing ass to get ahead; I thought I could just be the best nurse I could be, keep the patients safe and comfortable and somehow make it in this field. I guess I was wrong. 4 years of college down the *******!

No such thing as "compassion" in our field. I haven't heard from my current employer but have alredy sent for applications to go back to school for other fields. It sucks. I love nursing. I love the patients. I am a damn good nurse. But I am sick of the politics. I am sick that "a seasoned" nurse can go on leave to take care of a "substance abuse problem" (which I think they should be able to) but people find out I am starting to see a psychiatrist and now my entire nursing future is n jeopardy. No wonder there is a NURSING SHORTAGE!! Dammit can't we be human and be nurses too? I never once put any patient in jeopardy, I checked and double checked my MARS and called DR's in the middle of the night to clarify orders that were unclear! I am not perfect, but no one is! It ******* suks that someone can hear something personal about another employee and "anonymously" report it to the BON. I know the BON is there to protect the public. But in my case I have provided everything they have requested and have been cleared by more than one DR. to practice nursing with no restriction but still will have this on my record FOREVER!!! I am so angry at the situation. Basically what this whole ordeal has taught me is 1) Hold your problems in until you can't take them anymore (Dammit we can't be human annd nurses too!) 2) When you can't take them any longer, self medicate yourself and become completely unhealthy. God forbid you see a medical professional to take care of your problems, (I mean that shows that you are an unfit nurse) 3) I have lost ALL FAITH in what is right and wrong, hopefully one day I can get this back. I don't know. The more I think about this, the more Ill I feel, regarding this profession and society in general. I am having an extremely ****** off day!!!!!!!! Just recently a teacher in my area left their child in a car for like 5 hours, the kid died after suffering brain injury. YOU think this teacher was punished by the board of education! NOPE!!! Yes it is horrible that this person has to live with this on their conscious forever. BUT no action taken by the board of education.... My sister is teacher and I am not saying that teachers (or any other profession) is immune from this scrutiny, but come on,, I was reported for being "tired and acting strange" and now my license that I worked hard for is on probation with restriction when everything (urine/blood) turned out normal and no patient complaints or med errors! Screw it all, I will take a 2 year computer training program like some of my friends did, make twice the money, have half the stress and not have to worry about farting in the wrong direction because it may be reported to the BON.

I read some of the replies and want to let you guys know a few more things - The hospital that this occured at is part of a large group of hospitals across the US, I did consult attorneys about wrongful termination and they basically laughed at me, they said, yea its wrong, but anyone (any attorney) who has gone against this corporations attorneys, have been drug through the mud and put through so much emotional turmoil (publicity in the papers, news, etc...) that it would not be worth it. I contacted more than one attorney and no one would go against this corporation. The basic message I got from them was -let this be water under the bridge and move on..... -Also, I feel the hospital went about this completely wrong. I had been there for years and hadn't even had a VERBAL warning about anything! I was preceptoring students, working as a charge nurse, WHY ON EARTH would they have me doing all of this stuff if I was such a NUTCASE! Then, my manager actually put me back on the schedule to come back to work, the day before I was to go back, my phone rang, it was the DON (who by the way I had never met in my life). She called me and told me to come meet with her right away, she wanted to "touch base and see if I was okay since I was coming back to work the next day" I went right in and thats when I got the ax! Basically said, "so many rumors are flying around about you that it wouldn't be a healthy work environment" She then told me I would be fired and given a bad reference, or I could resign and they would give me a good reference. Being completely overwhelmed and not knowing my choices (and not knowing they would later report this to the Board) I resigned, moved on, got another job been their for a year, and know my new employer doesn't know what "they are going to do with me" although I have no restrictions that would keep me from doing my current job!

Hey guys I just want to thank everyone for their support and advice. Still waiting to here from my current employer, now it is going on 5 days I have been on paid leave although it feels like an eternity. Just to clear some things up from my originial post.. 1) I do have an attorney that specializes in these types of cases 2) I do work in a "right to work state" so their is little I can do about that 3) My negative drug and alcohol tests were submitted to the Board 4) I asked my psychiatrist about starting on the antidepressant and Ambien and letting him know I worked night shift, so some days I was going to bed at 9am, other nights, when I was off of work, going to bed at 11pm and he said to take my medications before I go to sleep so that it what I did. 5) Trust me, I submitted everything I could, My psychiatrist submitted multiple reports saying that I have no impairment due to my "illness" (Depression, PTSD) and that I was compliant with my visits and have no impairment due to these diagnosis. 6) My coworkers wrote letters to my manager (at my past job where this happened) saying they never witnessed any "strange behavior" and that I was a great nurse, great coworker and always helped out, etc.. According to my coworker who turned this letter in, my manager basically said "this is irrelevant, stay out of it and do not get involved or you can face disciplinary behavior also" 7) I had never been in trouble before at work or in my personal life 8) I still to this day, have been told that all complaints are "anonymous" , that I absolutely DO NOT HAVE the right to know who reported me (as in which coworker/coworkers) I am okay with that, I am past the part of being angry at the person. Some days I just want to know "WHY"? 9) The board meeting is over, I was advised not to come to the hearing or testify on my behalf because they (the board) would likely be harder on me and "emotions would be involved" etc... So I heeded my attorneys advice. Once again, thanks so much to everyone. I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders and this has really been a blow to my self esteem and my career. I just try to remember all the "thank yous" I have gotten from patients and families over the years and hopefully one day, when this is past me, I will be able to help other people in similiar situations and pull them through like you are all doing for me. My husband tries to help me (emotinally) but he just doesn't understand the thoughts going through my head. He tells me things like "your a great nurse, there is no way this is going to ruin you" and tells me "I'm worrying too much about it and everything will work out" I know he is trying to be helpful but it honestly doesn't help. I basically worked my way out of a violent, horrible childhood, adolescence and ran like hell to college, put myself through college and thought I was on my way to changing my life for the better... Sorry to ramble, THIS SUCKS! But you all make it better, it is nice to know there are people out there who don't even know me and are offering such love and support!

I have an attorney. I was told to sign the consent agreement and not go before the Board because they would add even more punishment. YES I did confide in a coworker that I was seeing a psychiatrist because she was a old psych nurse and confided to me that she gained a lot of help from seeing a psychiatrist. I guess in my heart I can't see why she would turn on me like this. She would always tell me I could call her mom and she saw me as her "adopted daughter" ( I don't have a "family" really.) I never trusted ANYONE in my life and had finally started to trust and to think she could have caused this just breaks my heart. Also, Thank you all so much for supporting me, you don't know how a few kind posts can really help me through the day! I worked all my life to "make something of myself" and move on from my traumatizing childhood and I feel like it could all be taken from me! Thank you all so much, I am not saying I am a victim, just wrong place, wrong time, decided to put trust in someone whom I shouldn't have

So to make a long story somewhat short, I was working at a hospital, full time, night shift ( I have been a nurse for 5 years) and also going through a lot of issues at home, husband with MS, taking care of 3 of my sisters kids for over 6 months, driving my husband to get Solumedrol treatments and then coming home, putting on my scrubs and going to work. I was also in the process of seeing a psychiatrist for the first time in my life because I guess I finally felt like I couldn't "hold it all in" anymore (long history of sexual and physical abuse) on top of everything that was going on at the time. I thought I was doing the right thing, my job at the time didn't make it very flexible for me to switch shifts or call off (no-one wanted to switch with me I worked nights) SO I kept going to work, doing my job, until one night my supervisor pulls me off the floor (with a security guard) searches all of my stuff, drug and alcohol test me, sends me home...... Days later, everything came back normal, no drugs or alcohol in my system. The complaint stemmed from a "anonymous coworker" reporting that I was "acting strangely", "appearing tired in report". Well I was to go back to my job and the day before I was to go back they callled me in and basically forced me to resign or be terminated. They gave me a wonderful reference letter by the way. I move onto another job, have been working their for almost a year, then a few months ago I receive correspondence from the board that my case in being investigated. I comply with them (knowing I didn't really do anything wrong), well then I end up being sent a consent agreement, putting my license on monitored probabation, with restrictions (such as not being a nursing supervisor, manager , etc) I do not have any drug or patient care restrictions. I have also hired an attorney to get the restrictions lifted (or try to). Problem is, my current job, which I have been at for almost a year has had me on paid leave for 4 days while they "figure out what they are going to do with me". I have been their for almost a year, full time, great evaluations... And here I am sitting at home wondering If I am going to get a phone call and get fired! I got kinda down on the world, like , can we not be RN's , nurses, whatever and be human beings also. YES, I was seeing a psychiatrist, I was tired, my body was adjusting to the medications he prescribed me but at no point did I make a med error, harm a patient or call off of work. I find a lot of posts about drug and alcohol rehab but I cannot find anyone to talk to about this, or anyone who has been in a similiar situation. ANY bit of advice would be greatly appreciated! Love ya!~