ASUN2010

this is more of a rant than anything, but input is greatly appreciated. today i got to work at my usual time (40 min early) and go about my day. i am in training for the 3p-11p shift, and do not have my license yet, so i must have a preceptor. im going about my day and notice that all the other nurses are not looking at me in the eyes, generally acting strange around me. about half way through my shift one of my good friends pulls me aside and tells me we need to talk. she goes on to tell me that she and all other RN's i work with have been told that i should not be left alone with drugs, that they should watch me constantly, and that i may be a danger to my patients.... first, this has completely broken my spirit. second, i am reconsidering my choice in the OR. third, i am beginning to reconsider my choice in nursing. a little background as to why this hit me so hard. i take great, great, great pride in who i am, who God has molded me to be. i strive every day to make my patient's and co-workers days go by just a little bit easier. for someone to hear that i have to take adderall daily, turn that around 180 deg, label me as a drug seeker, and spread the word was like stripping my self worth from me. i would NEVER even think about stealing drugs. i would NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER think of myself as a danger to patients. i have run out of meds a while back due to pharmacy error this month, and my doc wont fill another RX, so i have been a little scatter brained, but not to the extent of putting someone in danger. i may think a little differently than the average bear, but that by no means means i am a danger. i will not even start on the drug seeking thing. that just straight up ****** me off. i want to find out who started the rumors, and clear them up ( in a civil manner of course), but i fear that i would have to confront every nurse (including the head cheeses of the department) and several techs. so now i am basically forced to do what i was taught not to do when rumors are started, which is keep my mouth shut, and go with the flow. if i warranted this treatment, then of course i would play it safe, but when my credibility as a person is attacked when i did nothing wrong, i need to clear it up. i am half expecting to be drug tested in the next week. if that happens, i will pee in the cup, then leave. everyone i have ever known would not ever imagine me being a drug head. it feels like it's me against the OR right now, when all i ever tried to do was help. or, maybe my ADD is affecting me more than i realize. i might just be too "out there" for the OR. i dunno anymore...

i know what you mean with the hyperfocus! i just wish i could do it more haha. i have been getting a lot of pressure from other staff to hurry things along and i guess i let it get to me. it seems that my problem is with prioritizing tasks. i often find myself making myself finish a certain page of documentation before i tend to another more important task, if that makes any sense. since i realized this i made (fast) prioritization my goal. i just have to find my groove and go with the flow. thank you for the tips! mind if i borrow some of your ideas?

i was just wondering if any of you have been diagnosed with ADD with or without the inattentive or sluggish cognitive tempo (SCT) subgroup. i was diagnosed a year ago, started in the OR 1.5 years ago as a nurse tech. i have learned a literal ton of information during the past year or so, but i am becoming frustrated with my memory. i am taking notes, writing things down, etc to remember common tasks, but i feel like it shouldnt be this hard to remember small things. i am trying to speed up my working speed, but i feel like i am extremely slow. i am taking medication, but probably due to being such a physically large person (6'5,265lbs) the effect i need it to have wears off in an hour or two, then its back to my good ole ADD riddled brain. i would GREATLY appreciate any advice, comments, suggestions, or tips for dealing with this beast. and if you need to vent, feel free to do so!

the only thing that gets to me is actually seeing people puke. i can clean it up all day but seeing it and hearing it hit the floor just bleeeech...but what do i know....im a baby nurse still

I could have used this at last week's clinicals lol...I kept smelling stool until late that night thanks!!!