NewbireRN2006, I am sorry to hear you are having such a difficult time. I thought I was being treated horribly years ago, and actually I was treated horribly. But, it helped me become a most excellent nurse. I think it did. While I was orientating, we didn't have preceptors. At first. I tried to get help where ever you could. If I ever asked a question, they would tell me "go look it up", and it was in a book! a Big Book. Not on a computer like today. If I ever asked for help, they told me " let me show you how to do that by your self from now on", and they did show me how. If I made mistakes, It was mine, not a preceptor (I didn't have one). They told me my nursing education should have prepared me for the orientation and work field. Apparently it did. Tons of nurses have the new nurse nightmare. I focus very hard not to treat anybody the way I was treated. As you become a seasoned nurse, don't forget how you were treated. Try to hang in there, maybe try a different area of nursing. I mostly work critical care, I perfer to have 1 or 2 patients, not 7 or more.