I know the feeling. Im a new nurse (3 months now) on a telemetry floor, and its nothing like I thought it would be! Next week Im gonna be on my own and I was feeling scared, but now I'm learning that you just have to take one day at a time, and not beat up on yourself too much. Honestly, I think with just starting out on your own, the most important thing is SAFETY!!! Like someone said before, we are gonna make mistakes, but the important thing is to learn from them.(Well that and not to kill anybody). So now, I dont beat myself up, I just consider it another lesson learned.