itsaboutime

Hi Everyone, I really just needed a place to express my grief. I have been an LPN for about 25 years, mostly in LTC with a few short stints in other areas. For the last year and a half I have been a home care nurse for a beautiful little boy with significant developmental problems and some minor health issues. I was with this little angel 12 hrs a day 3-4 days a week and over time came to love this boy as if he was my own. Never in my career have I become so attached to a patient. A little over a week ago he unexpectedly passed away during the night, and worse, I was the one who found him that morning. I am just devastated, and having a difficult time expressing my grief because i was "just the nurse". The thing is I was really more mom than mom was, she was rarely around and when she was she barely paid any attention to him. Not saying that she didn't care about his welfare but no real motherly feelings. I guess I just need to get out how much I love this child and that I miss him so much it hurts. I have not been back to work since and don't think I can do home care anymore especially peds. Im not even sure I can do nursing anymore at this point. Well thanks for listening, it feels a little better just getting that out.

since i havent been in school for sooooo long it has taken me awhile to get back into the swing of things and get organized. ive probably rewritten my notes 15 times. in going to give the theory another week or two and then sched the test. by the way what is a passing score?

thanks for the info!! maybe i'm not a complete dunce. this subjective stuff is not my forte either. i prefer more concrete, black and white ideas too. i wish i had'nt taken this as my first course but im glad im getting it overwith. on to soc and lifespan next.

well, after 18 years as an lpn, and finally getting the kids on their way, now its my turn, when i told my daughter i was going to go for my rn after all this time she said IT'S ABOUT TIME, hence the name. well im working on ethics theory and practice and im feeling a little overwhelmed and alot stupid. I have been working on this since Dec decided to take the ec practice exam and bombed. i dont feel like i'm lurning any of the right stuff for the exam. i did great on the senarios but not the theory. is this a difficult class or is it just me?