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I would love to hear some responses to this as well. I've been an ER nurse for over 2 years and am looking to transition to home health.

To everyone with such inspiring words of advice and support: Thank you from the bottom of my fragile heart :redpinkhe. I'm still struggling with some sleeping issues, racing thoughts....but all in all...I have a wonderful supportive staff that wants to see me succeed. You have all been sincere in your opinions and I very much appreciate it. A little late responding though. Since I'm the newbie, I work variable shifts so my sleep/rest/work schedule is a little all over the place. Still having good days/ versus bad days. Nature of the work. Again, your words are kind and I think I just may sleep through the night tonight. It's been a while. THANK YOU ALL!

Thanks for the replies. Just feeling so inadequate. I actually work in a really great place. Very understanding of the new grad, but it's a small department, yet very busy. I take things very personally. I know what needs to be done, but I sometimes just don't have the time to do it. I'm scared. I'm worried. I'm sensitive. Lastly, I'm ranting. One thing keeping me going is I have aspirations of one day becoming a preceptor for a new grad and teaching the this new nurse in a safe environment to keep up their morale an sense of worth. Questions is: How the heck am I going to make it to that point? Only time will tell. Cheers. Thanks for responding. It's all I had on this lonely night :redbeathe

Only posted here a few times. But, now...yes now, more than ever need some support. Sitting alone after a tough shift wondering if I've made the mistake of thinking I was cut out for the ED. Had a tough night. Here's the kicker...not one of my patients were "critical", but each were so time consuming I simply could not keep up. I have a fantastic supporting team, but we are usually short with only 1 tech that is pulled in a million different directions. So as the RN, we usually have to do everything on our own. I'm constantly saying, "I've never done this, could you help", "Would you mind giving me a hand, I've never done this, "Is this indeed correct dosage", "I can't read these orders, what does this say".....the list goes on and on and on. I try to stay positive, but usually about the 11th hour of my shift, I start wondering if I should come back the next day. I feel so stupid, slow, inadequate and unworthy. I was an hour late hanging a simple liter of NS on a patient, then had to give Avelox that was bound to drop his BP even more. The doc (BTW, who is so fast, quite non-verbal) gave me a look like that I've never seen him give anyone else before. My heart dropped and I apologized, no harsh words from him, just that look of disappointment. I didn't feel like explaining to him that I was irrigating 6 liters through the bladder of my other pt and he was bleeding from his member and my 2 other patients were on there call light constantly needing attention as he wouldn't have cared much. I was the tech in this department for 6 mos, then completed my practicum here, then offered the residency position. I feel like the bar has been set really high for me and I don't feel like I'm cutting it. BTW, I am aware that many feel new grads don't belong in the ED. But the fact of the matter is, I'm there. I know I just have to keep moving, keep trucking, keep trying my best. I'm not stupid, I'm slower than most. But I don't have a very thick skin right now. Hypersentive to everything. I never once thought this was going to be a cake walk, but I also would like to get a good nights sleep without dwelling on everything I could have, should have or would have done better. Blah, blah, blah....new grad blues.

If you look at the bottom of the MHCC stats web page, it says that that page was last updated 08/07. So, I'm thinking maybe that's when they might have posted them last year.

I think I'm going to have to break down and buy a Macbook Pro. I just don't think I can bring myself to buying a PC. It's just....wrong! My Macbook right now is great, but I need lots more memory and I want to be able to run Vista.

Good for you!!! Make sure to finish Micro too. I've heard that next year they will give discretionary points for that (as MHCC did this year). Also, try to work for a CCC clinical site...Providence Elder Care is often hiring CNA's;) Mexico.....JEALOUS!!! Have fun anyway......without me!

No time to celebrate:no: Must figure out how to pay for school, what I need for school, can I work on my Mac instead of buying a PC laptop, figure out if I should still work during school. See....there is so much stressing to do, no time to waste. But......I really could go for a little glass of bubbly. What the hell, make it a bottle. Is there a forum rule of drinking and posting?

The whole envelope opening thing....was very hard for me as well!!! :chuckle It's very exciting though!!!

This is my second year applying. Don't give up. It makes it all that much sweeter in the end!!:redpinkhe

WoooooooooooHooooooooooo! I got in!!!! Congrats to all who made it in. Can't wait to meet ya!

Is anyone else frustrated about not hearing from CCC yet? It's difficult, because I need to let my employer know what days I have to take off for orientation, nurse "bootcamp" (as MHCC calls it") etc... I don't want to tell them dates for MHCC, then find out about that I need different dates off for CCC. Arrrrghhhh I was told that by OCNE rules they had to have their letters mailed by June 1st. Obviously.....not the case. Or maybe.....my postal guy is playing a cruel, cruel joke on me. That has to be it!

When did you find out about Clackamas? I'm still waiting.....has anyone else heard from them yet?

Congrats! I'm very glad that it all worked out for you. Good luck on your journey through OHSU. Keep us posted on how it goes!!!

You know.... there is a better than excellent chance that it is the 13th. I was thinking it was the 10th. I didn't put anything in writing that day. I had a horrible morning before the interview and arrived in a bit of a frenzy. So, yeah, maybe that's why they told us letters could be the first of next week. Just like everyone else, the sooner the better, 'cause I need to be letting my employer know!!!