oldnavynurse

Masulliv, spot on I agree with your reply. Love your avatar, If not mistaken it would be a picture of the 1st black RN Mary Mahoney who became the first black woman to complete nurse's training in 1879.

spot on Craysn

Spot on I concur with you Doumbia

Spot Angel Great answer I concurs 1000% and have made that same prayer each work day

Shame on all of you nurses who gave such negative comments to Neezy, we need more nurses like Davey Do and the others who show empathy towards a person asking for understanding and conformation that they are not the only one that feel this way. Yes Florence would be turning over but not at Neezy, At you all who hung up your compassion and caring shoes at your work place door. This fellow nurse do not need snide remark and comments of discouragement, but of encouragement, comfort and understanding. Again I say shame on you! if a person was standing at the ledge would you holler jump -- I hope not this nurse is at the edge show he/her compassion and love --you know that stuff you held dear when you start nursing and was going to help the world -- Stop eat our own! Neezy, I have been an RN since 1990 and I have meant hundred if not thousands of nurses of all areas of the nursing spectrum who feel like you do. I myself had my first look at nurse burn out/ I hate my job syndrome my first year. There was an excellent nurse who expressed you sentiments, and I being a new nurse and not understanding or experiencing the toll that this syndrome takes: I said stop being so miserable and get another job. Her reply was, it is not that easy and one day you will see how you will get chained to this profession, then she added if you last that long and walked away. About 10 years into my nursing career, her words can back to haunt me. With the changes in health care and nursing it hit me like a wrecking ball what she was saying. I did last and still is standing that long, However, 20 some odd years later I myself reached the cross roads of the nursing profession, maybe not to your level of anguish but I have shared my demons that haunted me with other follow nurses, who was so much more understanding then the ones here that posted negativity. I know you do not ask for advice, but indirectly you did. So please bear with me and what I am about to post. I have taken care of the active duty soldiers of war for two wars and you have some clear issues of PTSD and clearly you are in emotion and spiritual pain, dear heart if you have not already please get counseling/help for healing, if you have not already. Also, surround yourself with well wisher and like minded people/nurses who have or are in the same boat as you. I must caution you not to be in that boat without a paddle though. You mention going back to school, that maybe a paddle for you. Returning to school after 25 year to get a NP degree was/is a paddle for me. This was another direction from ICU and a different level of nursing. I truly get it when you say nursing is in you, so yes if you can't or don't want to leave for whatever reason start making a change for you, for the betterment of your life and emotional health. Do not be stagnate seek out and act on how and what you need to do to bring a change in you nursing career to ease/ stop you distress. Stay up lifted, please do not give up, be blessed and move forward to a better day