I don't know if anyone is still reading this post but I'm a new nurse also and was let go. I have been working at a rural hospital in the town I went to school in.I have been working there for 3 months. I was a tech there for 1 month because I was waiting for my license. ( I have been a tech before, but not at that hospital) Within that 1 month time, I was often called off work due to low census. When I got my licensure as an RN my nurse manager came to the night shift and worked with us for 2weeks(me and two other new nurses), and then I was left on my own with 4 to 5 patients a night, praying that I did not get any more admissions. My charge nurse had about 5 patients themselves, no tech on the floor and no preceptor. This is a busy acute floor and it seemed like all through the night the ER would send these patients to our floor. I was told before I took the job that it was extremely hard and the nurse manager was not a good person to work for. I would often get overwhelmed with prioritizing, admissions would throw me extremely behind, I was getting better at passing my meds (at least I thought I was.) Every night when I came to work, the day shift nurses would be behind and its hard to fix the mess when you don't know where to start. I wish today I would have listened to the people who were trying to tell me not to take the job. My friend who started with me has already quit and moved to a new job(and its not in med-surg) The turn over rate is horrible, I was getting trained by nurses that have only been there for less than a year themselves. I feel disgusted, hurt, and sad. I cried almost everyday when I came home from work and feel like I have ulcers the size of baseballs in my stomach. I have never been fired from a job before, I feel like I let myself down and wonder if nursing is even for me anymore. I'm scared to apply to other hospitals in fear that the same thing will happen again. I don't know what to do now? any suggestions out there?