almostanurse

yep, you can read it. It is your chart and belongs to you. mostly they suggest the doc being present so an explanation to any questions can be talked about, and because most lay people dont understand the abreviations ect... used in the chart.

Im still in school, 5 weeks short of my lpn. The hardest part for me is clinic. I get anxiety attacks and failed last year, had to repeat 175 clinic. Not because im stupid, just because I stress, think hay this person watching me has the power to make me or break me. So I sabataged myself, I couldnt breathe and no o2 to the brain made me not think clearly and Constently drop stuff on the floor, forget things ect.... Well any way I have been working as a nurse extern over the summer, and have done well. Worked with a very calm, patient and understanding precepter. Now back to school again. Every thing was going great, first two weeks went by, I managed to stay calm and did well. Today I left in tears because had to do a head to toe assessment, then do a care plan. It has to be turned in by the end of the shift. Took my time getting my data, then started looking through the book for my interventions and rational as to why these interventions are needed. my instructer came in and told me I need to get it done before I go and better hurry, panic attack sets in, I cant find anything in the book, cant breathe, I know Im not going to get done on time. so any way turned it in unfinished but almost done, and cryed all the way home. The paper was a mess, and couldnt find pg numbers ect.... fealing pritty stupid and beat up. my instructer says to me as I was walking out, that one of the RNs told her that I didnt know that I needed to use a needle filter when getting med from a ampule. I told my instructer yeah, I didnt remember that. well heck I only did that in the lab a year ago. havent had to deal with an ampual sence lab in school. How does one remember all this stuff. Some times I leave work, or clinic and a feel good. then days like today I feel like such an idiot. Some times I want to quit fighting, give up and go back to being a CNA at least I knew what I was doing and could do it well. I hate feeling stupid. but find it happens alot. any way needed to vent, and to cry a little more. thanks for letting me vent.

this RN I work with, she is sooo organized. one thing she does that I have started to do is puting everything that has to be done on the scedual. as things are done she highlights them. as things are charted she puts a c through the task.