InstructorKass

Rags: the first thing you need to do is take a deep breath and calm down. Your posting is somewhat rambling in nature, which indicates that you are seriously stressed. I have been in nursing for 20 years. I too was a nursing assistant (34 years ago). I have worked Maternity, Peds, Critical Care, and have was the nursing supervisor for our facility for over 10 years. I think you are simply trying to hard to impress your coworkers, and in doing so, have made yourself the victum. There are a lot of areas where nurses can be territorial. You are trying to "fit in" with a group that you cannot do at this point of your career. You are spinning your wheel. Go to work with a smile, stay within your own job description, and don't discuss your personal problems with anyone but your family and friends. A lot of people love to kick a person when there down, it makes them feel better. Don't share with people when you are taking the exam, you don't need to. By doing so, it adds more stress on you and starts this cycle of self degredation. You are not the first or last person in America that has failed a NCLEX exam. Put things in perspective. Right now, focus on your family, studies and the upcoming holidays. Find a good review book, find time for yourself, and take your exam early next year. Everything has a way of working out.