Hi! I am a senior BSN student at Saginaw Valley State University. I entered nursing because I was really interested in women's issues, especially pregnancy. I love the concept of midwifery and empowering women during pregnancy and birth. However, I find myself so frustrated with the medical system of OB. I am working as a nurse extern in OB right now and I hate it! I feel like the beauty of pregnancy and birth is overshadowed by the schedules, the meds, the aggressiveness of the doctors who are so quick to slice open women to fit their schedules. It's a rare moment when I actually see through the depressing medical shroud and actually see childbirth for what it is. So my question to you is-what are the options for a BSN to work with mothers through the midwife model of care? I live in Michigan and there is only one free standing birth center here. I have seen a lot of CNM's who act just like medical doctors, and that is also depressing! I know that I hate hospitals, and don't want to work as a hospital nurse. So does anyone have any advice? I am seriously considering dropping out of nursing because I hate the healthcare system and I don't know how I could get involved, as a nurse, in working with women in pregnancy outside of a hospital setting. Those of you who know how I feel, PLEASE give me any advice, resources, websites, someone to just talk to to share my concerns...I am so depressed about my future because I hate the hospital so much and what it does to women... Please help me!!