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hey tweety, what state did you get your license from, and the new grad you are talking about. just curious. thanks!

I actually just talked to my preceptor today and just found out that she didn't pass the first time either! I was so shocked but to be honest, it made me feel good because I look up to her so much because she is such a good nurse. SHe is actually the type of nurse I want to be in the future. She gave me so much encouragement and I feel so much better about this. You know what, I think out of all the four new grads, I think you are going to be the greatest! Hey, once you get your license, you know it is hard earned. And yes, the game begins when we all start working on the floor, not when we pass the test. We're gonna make it through I know. Goodluck again! Hope we get our ATTs soon

Just like you, I didn't expect my co-workers to be so supportive of me. When I failed, I told them right away and they were the first ones to tell me not to feel bad because according to my preceptors, I was one of the best new grads that they had and that they would not think of me less. My co-workers were worried about me because I didn't show up to work the next day and they called me! Imagine, they called me! I felt so good because I felt so wanted. At first, they wanted to let me work as a CNA because that was the policy but I told them that I wanted to take a leave off work so I can prepare and regroup. They held a meeting (Oh my GOD!) and decided that they will give me the 45 days or so off. I felt so blessed because even though I failed, I didn't lose everything. I had them, and I still have my job. You know, I don't know if this will make you feel better but there is another new grad on my floor and she passed the nclex already, but based on the feedback we're all hearing, she's not a very good one. THis is what my manager, my clinical educator and my preceptors said, "we'd rather have a person who failed it the first time and is a very good nurse than have one who passed it the first time but is a bad nurse." Trirunner, they kept us and so we must be doing something right. THis thought keeps me going all the time. I am scared to go back to work, but then again, I just want to go back because the people I work with are the best! Rush is a very good hospital, you are lucky that you are a part of a great institution. Did you find out if the other 3 new grads passed? Goodluck to you.....

hey trirunner, I am just curious. since you worked as an RNLP like me, what happened to your job when you found out you failed? I just want to know if we experienced the same.

Thank you so much Lena, you know what I'm so scared of, people judging me and my potential of being a good nurse based on me failing nclex. More than anything, that is what I'm super scared of. But thanks for your encouragement.

I'm glad you got things figured out..Me too...thanks for all the info trirunner and tinta...I appreciate it. Goodluck to you trirunner, yes, we will pass it the second time around. Let me know when you get your ATT already so I can estimate when I'll get mine. Thanks guys!

Thank you so much. I am working on accepting everything that's happening to me right now, and yeah, I do want peace of mind. Thanks!

Concorde, Thank you so much. hey, question from you. Where are you from? Are you from the philippines?

THat is so sad...............I feel like that nurse could have handled the situation better. She should know how hard it is to be a new grad. What was she thinking? She must be a very angry and unhappy person. SHame on her. You know what, good things will happen to you. You should be proud of yourself because you handled it well, you are not a failure. Trust me, more nurses who have worked 15-30 years have mistakes worse than what you did. I don't understand why she did that to you but like I said, good things will happen. Keep your chin up!

I am so happy for you... It's so nice to know that someone still believes in the power of prayers. You know what, I recently just joined this site and indeed all who have responded to my thread have been very helpful. After reading yours, I felt like, wow, this person has so much strength which I don't have now. In a way you made me feel bad because unlike you, I gave up on praying. All my life, my faith is what kept me sane, but when I found out I failed, I felt paralyzed because I didn't know what to do. I was so mad, I was hurt and I hated life. I never failed anything this big in my life before. I was always that person who made my parents proud, who prayed a lot and got my prayers answered. Getting my license was all that I've been preparing for and to find out that it all went to waste was so hard to accept. Until know I'm struggling. I want to be ok. I really want to but I'm not there yet. In this process though, just know that you inspired me and you are very lucky to work with people who share your joys and pains, and who believe in you a lot! You deserve this.......please pray for me as well. Thanks!

Ok, I have another question. Another reason why I couldn't finish filling out the application for CTS is because there is this question about whether or not I have been employed as an RN or LPN after graduation. It is a yes or a no thing and I honestly don't know what to say. Yes, I have been employed functioning as an RN, but I was license pending. Also, I asked my employer and they weren't sure about it either because technically, I wasn't functioning as a registered nurse. Plus, if I pick yes, they are asking me to send them a work history form and my employer is not sure about that either. What is the Work History form? I don't know, this thing is not moving for me because I know I have to register but I don't want to give the wrong info though. Called them a lot of times and left messages, it's been a week and I still haven't heard from them. This is so frustrating. Waiting 45 days is frustrating enough.. Man................... Shed some light please!!! Thanks

PractikalNurse, That is so encouraging....thank you so much! I hope that in the future, you and I, together with the other nurses in this forum will be like your mom. Thanks a lot and goodluck to you as well.

trirunner, that is why I am so confused. I think we need to register for both, but then my friend who didn't pass also said that the applications are good for 3 years for continental testing. I asked pearsonvue and they said that they don't have an idea about the state's requirements for retesting. For pearsonvue, we have to pay again because once you failed the test, the ATT issued to us will be "expired." So, I don't know about CTS. I tried calling them and emailing them but I did not get any response. Plus, I registered at pearson 2 weeks ago already and I still don't have my ATT. I know the usual waiting period is 3-6 weeks, but the first time I applied for my ATT, it only took a week and a half. So, I'm worried that I am not going through the process correctly. I was thinking that it would be faster for them to issue us another one considering that they have all our papers etc. Did you find out anything?

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Gumdrop, That was a very beautiful prayer. Reading it made me realize how selfish I was and I admit it. I am still in that stage. It is so hard to move on but I know in time, It will happen....When all these is over, I'll be a perfect picture of success!!!!! Thanks for sharing your prayer with us.....

Hey guys, I failed it also. When my mom and I were sitting in front of the computer waiting for the results, I was so excited thinking that finally, no stress for me anymore. But I failed. I stared at the computer in shock! My mom did not know what to say either. My dad woke up and was speechless, my brother was the same way. THey could not believe that out of all the people, I would be the one to fail it. They were very sure that I will pass it the first time. Also, what sucks the most is that my parents were counting on me and my salary to save our house. I was devastated because all I wanted to do was pass the NCLEX so that for sure, I'll be making the money that I was making at that time and help my parents out. I was so devastated. I didn't know what to do. I know that God had a reason, but my first reaction was, "why now when You know that my family is counting on me?" I had every good intention in my bone that is why I wanted to pass it, I was not thinking of myself actually, but still, God did not let me pass it. I don't understand, I don't think I ever will, but one thing is for sure, I don't have faith and confidence in myself anymore, or anybody for that matter. I am so sorry for being so negative, i know that you guys are right, we have to think positive but right now, it just seems so far fetched for me. I can't do it yet, I'm still in the stage of figuring out why I failed, why me...........Goodluck to all of us

Thank you so much for all your encouragement...I appreciate it a lot...I find myself crying still and sometimes palpitating...I don't know, I'm so stressed out which I think is normal, it just sucks coz I've been stressing about this since May and when I finally took the test in August, I thought that was going to be the end of my misery but I guess not.....THanks guys!

I have a question!!! Since I need to take the NCLEX-RN again, do I need to register both at pearson and continental testing? I registered at pearson already but I don't know if I need to register again for continental testing services. My friend said that there's no need because applications are basically good for 3 years but I don't know if that follows if you failed it the first time already. Help please...... By the way, I live in Chicago, so I am applying for Illinois licensure. Hope to hear from you guys soon.

It's been 2-3 weeks since I found out that I failed. I want to believe that I am better, but I still have my "episodes" of crying and feeling worthless. It just sucks to "fail" for the first time in my life when this is really all I've been preparing for. Right now, I don't know how to study for it or not study for it, I just don't know.....But one thing that I am very thankful for is that my employer has been very supportive. They are doing everything to keep my job for me, they are even willing to wait because according to them (my manager and preceptors), I am one of the best that they've had....This comment just made my heart sing, but then again, it is very hard to get over the feeling of being a failure. So hard.....I just can't wait for this to be over....I can't be sad anymore, it's so hard. Thanks for your reply though, I appreciate it.

I knew that joining this site will give me the encouragement that I needed. It is very refreshing to know that there are people who understand how hard it is to be in this profession or at least "start" being in this profession. I never thought of being a nurse but now that I am, (minus the license--which I know I will have soon!!!), I could not imagine myself being something else. I want this so bad and you guys are right..I will do everything in my power to pass the second time. Please do me a favor guys, I know you all don't know me, but I would like to ask you all if you could say a prayer for me that I gain my confidence back and that I have all the strength that I need. It is true that I always had things come easy for me, but hey, this is the real world, time to be a big girl and face the challenges that life has to offer. I am sure that this experience will help me inspire people in the future. I can't wait to surpass this, I can't wait to tell all of you that finally, I passed. Please pray for me. Thanks for all your replies....It means so much to me right now more than anything...God bless all of you.....

hey guys! i have been reading the comments on this website for a long time now but i only registered to be a member two days ago hoping that i will find the encouragement that i badly need right now. i am an emotional wreck because i just found out that i failed nclex. this came as a shock to me because i never thought that i will be one of those who will fail it the first time. i was always the smart one, the good student who did not have problems with school or tests. i cannot believe i failed it and now, i don't have an inch of confidence in myself. i lost my job (which i love so much) because of this and i don't know how to deal with this. i was never defeated ever in my life and because of this, i don't know how i'm gonna get through this. please tell me that there is life after failing it the first time, and that failing the nclex won't reflect my being a good nurse in the future (my preceptors during orientation told me i was one of the best new grads they had)......sucks so much but i feel like a total failure........... please share your stories...i need them....thanks!