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I have worked in Peds my entire nursing career and have experienced a lot of deaths. Our unit provides nursing care for small bowel syndrome patients, who ultimately pass away from complications related to the illness (if they don't receive a transplant). Ultimately, I've had to endure a lot of heartbreak because these children become like family to me due to their extended stays. I, too, wanted to quit pediatric nursing after experiencing my first couple of deaths, however, I realize now, that those experiences only make you a stronger nurse in the end. You realize how precious life is, therefore, you strive to make each patient's day better. I would suggest attending a debriefing session as well. It always helped us to discuss our feelings and share emotions. I would also suggest having a unit memorial service for the child (amongst your peers). It always helps to remember and reflect! Take care!