I appreciate everyone's candor. Of course, I was hoping for more positive feedback but I wasn't hanging my hat on it. I know that the last 15 months have only made an already tough job unbearable for some. I don't blame anyone who advises against this. I am grateful to those who have taken the time to share and, because of that, I have read each post carefully and seriously. I was a paralegal in my first career and, though I would never compare it to what a nurse takes on daily, I have advised people to run fast and hard from that profession. Everything is relative.
I love medicine. I love science. I love problem solving and research. I love taking care of people, even when they don't want me to. 🙂 I thought, despite the stress and the difficulties, this would answer those desires and get me working. In another life, I would of started this much earlier. I am not privileged nor young enough to kick back into a long, educational path without working. I thought this may get me into the field and answer a call to service. I am not romanticizing this profession in the least but I am in awe of each and every one of you. I know none of you signed up for what has been thrown at you.Thank you for your continued advice on this thread. It has given me some things to think about. I sincerely hope all of you find some peace and appreciation in what you do.