I know how you feel! I was one of only 3 new grads that was hired into my MICU about 3 1/2 years ago. The other two were student nurses in the unit for a year prior to that, so naturally I felt the LEAST competent. It took me a good year to feel comfortable (no butterflies on the way in to work). I also did my first year on the night shift and i would recommend this to all New Grad Rn's working in an ICU. You have time at night to develop basic nursing skill and become proficient with assessments and so forth, let alone the critical care aspect. The day shift in my unit is CRAZY and there are some days that I still struggle to get a 10 minute lunch. I didn't even know if i would make it in the ICU initially, and now I am often the charge nurse, and a core Preceptor in the unit. Words of advice: You have to look out for your self, be assertive and whatever you do, don't freak out! Remaining calm amid chaos has proven to be INVALUABLE in my practice! Good luck to you!