Blueb

Hi everyone, I’m a new grad of about a year and a half, working as a floor nurse. Since I’ve started I’ve been repeatedly messing up. I’ve never harmed a patient, however, I’ve made 4 med errors now (some of which were purely my fault such as missing a ‘right’ of med administration, to some which were identified systematic errors). I’ve had a few non-med errors and near misses as well. Each time I’ve felt completely devastated, immediately assessed the patients and informed the necessary people, then self reported. I create a plan to never have the same error occur again, write the plan down and talk to my manager. I truly reflect hard on each mistake and think about what I could have done differently. Luckily my facility has been non-punitive for errors but I just feel like such a huge failure since I keep making them. There are nurses I work with who have had decades-long careers without making as many errors. On the other hand, I’ve seen colleagues make mistakes in the workplace and choose not to report. I can see forgiving a new grad making 1 or 2 mistakes, but I just can’t be okay with how many I’ve made. Each one keeps me up at night and gives me horrible anxiety. I am anxious every time I do a med pass. I just want to do well and of course never want to harm anyone, but I’m wondering if these string of errors is cause for me to quit (or be fired). Am I alone in this feeling? Have other nurses out there made repeated mistakes like me? Should I just quit being a nurse?