OH my goodness, I feel like I really relate to this. Anxiety, feeling ill, unable to recuperate. My doctor also prescribed me hydroxizine but I am on the brink of quitting. It's hard to feel like a failure, which is how I feel after doing this work for a while, but I agree I feel like I can't function for a couple days after work and then feel ill frequently. Why does it seem like some people can just do this stuff for years and years?? I have been at it for 5 years. 3.5 of those years part time. Does anyone else feel like its hard to quit or think of doing something else(potentially lower paid) because they feel like it will be hard to advance in the career later on, like people will look down on it?