Hi everyone I need advice!
I graduated in December. I interviewed for a critical care job in early February and started in March. I am from the Bay Area so I decided to move out of state for this job because I didn't want to sit around not working for months and because I really wanted this critical care experience. But right after I moved the entire country shut down. So I started this new difficult job during a pandemic and now I'm struggling.
I am having so much anxiety every day. I live alone. I can't go out and meet people or make friends. I don't know anyone here. My preceptor is very tough. I don't think he means to be, but he can be very condescending and acts like I am an idiot if I don't get something right away or if I need help with a skill. I am the kind of person who needs to do something 10 times before I really get it but it's hard to have that luxury in this unit which is very busy. I feel stupid all the time. I spend the day before each shift unable to relax and being incredibly anxious.
All of this together make me want to quit but I don't want to quit (if that makes sense). I guess I'm looking for advice--what do I do? The thought of being alone for another 9 months in this town is so depressing especially with everything going on right now. Is it possible to get a job in CA with 6 months experience if I absolutely need to move back? Again, the hospital is nice, management is really nice and I don't want to leave (I moved with the intention of being here for a couple of years) but I need to know if it is possible to get a job in the Bay area with less than a year experience just in case I need to move back for my mental health.