And, you can also be misinterpreting my analysis of your situation as being mean. You might be more sensitive than usual right now because of the stress of what you're going through.
That’s fair. And actually quite true, I am very sensitive right now. I have beat myself up for what I’ve done, I know nobody on this forum knows me personally but I am NEVER late. To anything. So to have done it so early in my young career is devastating to me. I have spent a week on and off crying.
That being said, I do know what my mistakes were and I do know what I should’ve done differently. I wish I would have done everything different but those wishes are for last week and I needed advice on what to do this week, I was very naive to whether I would be able to get another position within this hospital based off the reason I was terminated, I was questioning if I should have been terminated at all to be honest, but I live in an “at will” state so it is what it is.
My aunt actually works on another floor of this same hospital and advised me not to take the position as well as my neighbor who is in management said this manager is very difficult to work for. I decided against divulging that information because it didn’t matter at the end of the day, my mistakes were my own, not the manager.
I made the decision to start at the hospital further away, gain some experience, and try again later on at the hospital of my choice. Or maybe I’ll love it at my new place! I have a long road ahead of me so plenty of opportunity to put this behind me as a stepping stone and grow from it