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Happy Holidays. Incidental exposure to etoh is supposedly factored into the UDS cutoff amounts. Saying that, for etoh is often zero. I hope the split is being tested for presence of egt because it is a metabolite of etoh. If it's present, the assumption is, you've consumed alcohol and not of accidental exposure. If this is the finding, most monitoring programs will place you as noncompliant, option of treatment, pull you out of work, or all of these. If this is a sequential event, I would expect to be dismissed. They can also send a complaint to your state nursing board stating you are unsafe to practice.

OK, I finally had a BON and hearing, and found to have not violated any laws or regulations governing the field of nursing or NP. But, I still don't have a job, and now I've not worked for over a year as an NP and numerous years as an RN. I've contacted agencies, and no one really wants to give me the time of day. Even though I've the orders of dismissal for all charges and complaints from my state's HPMP. So, I tried to get into my state's MRC (medical reserve corp), and at first they accepted me, now they've pulled all my information out of their database. Is there discrimination against the alcoholic or addict? Hmmph?! All I know, is I feel I'm a competent RN and NP, and I feel I can't be hired because of my actions while in active disease. Maybe, I'm just being resentful, or feeling sorry for myself. IDK Still doing zoom meetings and routine contact with my sponsor. Sobriety is the number one thing, but I can't but feel jaded. I can't hold my state's HPMP accountable for falsely accusing me of adulterating a urine, or sending a complaint to the NADB, or sending letters of credentialling stating I had adulterated urine. This really, really, REALLY upsets me. I'm glad I was vindicated, I still have all of my licenses. But, I am still suffering from their accusations. What do I do?

Still no board hearing. Things are not going well. Not working at all anymore. I've talked to many attorneys and all state a win for me is being allowed back into VAHPMP. Just so I can live in fear that this will happen again?! When will this nightmare end. I don't even know where to start looking for another career path. I did relapse, but have struggled to get back to some solid recovery ground. Though, it's very very shaky. A couple of months left of finances. I need a miracle

I've not contacted another lawyer. I've got one in mind from the taana website. The world situation has put everything on hold for me.

Well the covid virus has put everything on hold. Thought I'd get a financial gift with the stimulus package going out, but "nope", based the amount given on 2018 income taxes. Making to the end of this year without having to sell my house is looking questionable. And well, property is probably going to tank as well. Still sober, but 2020 SUCKS You know my life does not suck. I am sober, I've managed to keep all my Bill's paid (even student loans), I'm fed, my family is healthy (besides mentally), I'm healthy (ditto to mentally), I am working, I have people who love and care about me, and I have hope. I truly appreciate this platform. It's a place I can share my struggles, and hopefully my triumphs. And being sober today, thru all of this is victory. I've a long term solution to my short term problems. And in 1 or 2 years, if I have the daily victory of staying sober, I'll be better for it. I sure wish I could help out my state though. Maybe I'll call Monday and ask if they can give me something short term. "Crying baby gets the milk"

Well the covid virus has put everything on hold. Thought I'd get a financial gift with the stimulus package going out, but "nope", based the amount given on 2018 income taxes. Making to the end of this year without having to sell my house is looking questionable. And well, property is probably going to tank as well. Still sober, but 2020 SUCKS

I was dismissed formerly, but it about 5 days to finally get a straight dismissal. I need lots of prayers and any suggestions for Virginia lawyers. Mine still says I need to wait on board hearing, I agree. But, him telling me HPMP has immunity is frustrating. I've read the VA code on the monitoring program and I read that "members" can not be sued, I want to go after the organization. the same as a medical or professional malpractice suit. But I'm not a lawyer.

Well, finally, an investigation has started. This is my 3rd investigation and first without being my own worst enemy. My lawyer has informed me that even if BON sides with me and states HPMP was in error, I still cant hold HPMP liable for defamation or damages associated with lost wages. I REALLY hope he is wrong. I'm still sober, still going to my aa meetings, still trying to see my counselor, still crying at drop of hat, still having sleepless nights and scared to get on any meds because of how they may be viewed. I'm not talking benzos or anything like that. So, I'm still making it. This is damn hard though. Lawyer says I won't even be able to get the lab results. It's just hard for me to believe that an organization has that much power. There has to be a lawyer somewhere in VA willing to fight this monster.

I had a hair follicle test in November, when everything started and a polygraph. It went back 26 months. And ofcourse, I had been completing random drug screens until November, when I was "urgently " dismissed from HPMP. None of this is easy. I cant work as an NP because I cant get malpractice insurance, I cant work as an RN because someone stated I'm a lyer and maybe using. I work everyday and I've cut LOTS from my monthly budget. Still falling a few hundred short. It's going on 6 months, savings are about gone. Next, I guess I will have to seriously think about selling my house

It sounds like your organization wrote a complaint for the muscle relaxers and tornado. Its the diversion that's the issue. If it's not substances. I've depended on lots of support from friends and a psychologist to help me thru. I believe I have a 70% chance of having my licences suspended. I wish I could believe that the truth will be revealed and HPMP will be found in error, but I've seen too many injustices. I've got till the 27th of this month to respond to the BON on the accusation of tampering with my urine, but they are also wanting information through my 4 years in the program: 3 missed checking? I dont even remember when these were. What am I doing for treatment? I went into a 28 day program 2 years ago with my relapse. They have all of that! Whatever the case, I've made a list, trying to stick to facts, and will likely have my board hearing before April. A friend told me to go on with life as if I've already lost my licences. Hard to do, when you dont know where to look for work and i've been an NP for 10 years, Rn for 4 before that. Teach? Medical sales? I just dont know Life does go on, just different than I had planned.

Finally the board of nursing has started its "investigatio", and HPMP's complaints are from my entire time with them. I'm hoping I can have enough peace of mind to answer the investigators questions. Already had a flash of anger at the tone of their request. Still making it, still sober. HPMP didn't get me sober, and I wont use over this. Sure wish I could get some justice but I feel I'm SOL on that one

I'm working in a convenience store. 7 days a week. 2 weeks for a paycheck of what I used to make in one day. Quite humbling, frustrating. Not much in my really small town. I just love having patients come in and see me working there. I never know how to answer their questions. I feel so helpless to the whole thing. I have equity in my house, but cant get it, because I dont have a job. I was told it's be easier to just sell the house.

Its been almost 3 months since I was accused of adulterating a urine. I have active licenses, but unable to get credentialed, or get a job as an RN. My savings are running out. I haven't been given a date for a board hearing. I dont know what to do. Lawyer says we need to have hearing before doing anything else. Still sober!!!!

I've still not received a board hearing. Money is running low. I'm scared and frustrated.

Received results from my polygraph, he took 2 tests. One was inconclusive, the 2nd " not deceptive". That thing was not what I expected, because the questions of me tampering with my urine or altering my urine in any way, upset me. And that's the response the machine catches. Now, I've got to request my CM, send letters of compliance to payers ( I'm an NP, and insurance companies review CAQH-they want proof of compliance or they will not pay your claims for patients billed for my services). My board filed a public complaint against me when I relapsed, so my stuff is posted for the world to see. I'm requesting the dates be from the actual order into the program to the date of whatever decision they've made. I've not been able to work since the phone call Tuesday, Nov 12. So, she should, but I'm not very trusting of this new CM. I'll be so very angry, if there is a change from what she told me after the "STAFFING DECISION " on Thursday, Nov 14th. If what she informed me and my HR rep is different , I promise, I will do everything in my power to make her accountable. I'm held to ethical, moral, and compliance expectations, and the employees of these boards should be, too. Yup, its 1130pm here, and I can't sleep. Again. I'll definitely be working a 4th step on this one. If I make it thru